I love them both how can I decide! I kept thinking this and over again how would I tell Anthony. Could I change my mind about Ian maybe I shouldn't pick either. I Don't know what to do! Who should I choose. I felt like I needed to rip my hair out trying to make this decision. I thought about it and finally decided Ian I loved him always and always would. there was no other decision I needed to make now. I just needed to no how to tell Anthony calmly and not crying not freaking out and especially not hurting his feelings.
I walked into Anthony's room hesitating. He immediately got up and walked to me.
"Look Anthony about what you said yesterday." I tried to continue but he cut me off.
"Yeah I know I'm dumb but I ment it what I said." I started to tear up but knew I needed to stay strong.
"Look Anthony I do love you but I...I..." I cut off crying and couldn't speak. Anthony grabbed me "It's ok I got you." He hugged me tight it felt good. I was able to stop crying and continue to speak.
"Look I love you but I love Ian more and I'm sorry Anthony but it will be like that most likely forever." Anthony smiled and rubbed my back giving me an its ok look but I knew it was fake. I could see the pain and torture in his eyes I could tell I just broke his heart.
I wanted to leave I wanted to walk away right then I wanted to leave. I stared into his hurt eyes and started to cry hard. Anthony propped me up I needed someone to go to but Ian wasn't home. I started to walk to Ian's room but I felt a strong hand touch my shoulder. The hand yanked me back towards Anthony's room. I could feel the tight arms grasp around me and I leaned in close. Our faces got closer and our noses touched I could feel Anthony's black hair against my forehead. I knew that I loved Ian more but what I was feeling I couldn't deny. I knew that this was wrong and I couldn't decide then again. I started to feel tears swell up into my eyes. Anthony twirled me around and hugged me swaying me say it was ok. I knew what he was trying to do he was trying to reel me in to him and leave Ian. I knew I couldn't but I didn't know what I wanted anymore I could decide I couldn't choose. How could I?
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