Tales of a Neverland Lost Girl

Why

Is it me? Am I the problem?

I see him. Over there. Smiling. Having fun.

Without me.

Making jokes with others. Laughing loudly.

Mocking me.

Why?

Why am I over here and he is over there?

Did I do something?

Here he comes.

Going to invite me over, love?

No.

Here...I'll hand you your bag.

Sure.

What?

No I'm fine.

Really.

Bye.

Why?

Please tell me why he can just leave me here by myself and expect me to be okay.

I'm not okay.

He makes me happy.

He is the one I want to laugh with.

We used to laugh all the time.

We used to talk.

Hug.

Cuddle.

Kiss.

Where did it go?

Where is my love?

Taken away from me overnight.

What changed his mind?

Was it something I said?

Was it something I did?

Am I to blame.

Maybe I haven't been good.

Maybe I should try harder.

Who is that?

Who is she?

I get drunk on jeal-

Never mind.

But she's not even pretty.

I'm prettier then her.

Right?

Does he think that?

Maybe he thinks she's pretty.

I don't like her.

There's another one.

He hugs her too.

He picks her up.

He doesn't pick me up.

Why?

He looks so happy with her.

I'm paranoid.

I'm just overreacting.

It's fine.

I'll just let him text me if he wants.

I won't be the first to start a conversation....

....which usually ends in an awkward state and we just stop talking.

He will text me.

He loves me.

He says he loves me.

I love him.

Why are we drifting apart?

Like two boats, stuck on two different currents, headed for two different destines.

I want him to be my destiny.

I tried to leave my boat.

But I fell into the water.

Now I'm just drowning.

Why?

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Idk

-m