Knock knock, Baby! || JJK

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I tap the pencil on my face as I try to concentrate on the lecture. The professor keeps throwing theory and more theory at me and the other students, and yet I can't seem to wrap my head around everything if anything, he says. It's been four days since the party and the rumors are still going strong. I wonder what was so interesting about Jungkook and I having that conversation at the party. I acknowledge that it did seem like something was going on there, because it was, but things are escalating a little bit.

And yet every time I am with Jungkook, the boy seems to not even care or even see the stare and whispers that surround us. It's impossible for him not to know by now, but Jungkook hasn't mentioned anything regarding it to me. I wonder what is going on in his head.

We've been a little awkward with each other... I can't lie and say it has nothing to do with that classmate of his. I don't know but even to think about her makes me grow a bit mad. Hooking up with him? Please, what does that have to do with me? Obviously, I'm not mad because of that... It's okay for him to do so.... Just not with her! Yes, of course, this is it. I simply don't like her, never did. She gets on my nerves. I roll my eyes remembering the scene of her and Jungkook at that time and also she confronting me in the hallway.

I glance at the professor and look back down at my still-empty notebook. I should really write something, I'll get behind in class at this pace.

"Something on your mind?" Namjoon asks beside me. I glance at him very quickly not wanting to let him figure my thoughts.

"No," I answer making Namjoon raise an eyebrow at me. I raise mine at him too.

"If you say so." His voice is a little sarcastic making me frown at him.

"There really isn't."

"Again, if you say so." He shrugs.

"I'm serious." I cross my arms.

Namjoon turns fully in my direction and speaks with narrowed eyes, "If you don't want to talk about it, then don't."

"There's nothing to talk about!" I say a little too loud making the professor and quite a few students glance in our direction. I curl into a ball wanting to die out of embarrassment. "Sorry."

The professor glares at me for a few seconds before returning to his lesson. I glare at Namjoon.

"Don't come at me. I said it was fine not to talk it out." He shrugs.

"As if." I look down once again at my empty notebook. The lines in the pages are empty, but as I stare at them, my mind becomes full of thoughts once again. Thoughts about the rumors, Jungkook, and that damn girl. The fact that these things don't come out of my head no matter what, truly bothers me. Why is it bugging me this much? Why do I care if Jungkook is hooking up with his classmate? I don't. Yes, I don't care, why should I? That's why I don't... right?

I bury my face in my hands.

It's because I don't like her. That's it. That's why I care. Exactly! Why else? Jungkook is my friend, is only normal for me to want him to have a good partner. Yeah. And if we do end up raising Munhee together then it affects me too. Yes, that's more to why I should care. Only because he deserves someone nice, good to him, and kind. Not someone like her, It's obviously not because the thought of him with someone bothers me a lot more than I thought it would or it should... and that's probably why I haven't asked him about it until now...

Wait.

What am I even thinking right now? I'm not making sense. Let's stop thinking. Yes, that's for the best. Let's study. That's why we pay for college and come here every day. Not to think about hot roommates and their flings. No, I mean... Just roommates and their flings... Whatever. Let's focus on the lecture.