Knock knock, Baby! || JJK

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As we stepped through the front door, exhaustion weighed heavily on our shoulders. It was obvious today's events had taken a toll on both of us. Even on baby Munhee who has been currently sleeping. What worries me is the fact that I'm a mess and he might wake up at any given moment. It had been a rough day, especially for Jungkook. I watch him as he takes off his shoes and sets them aside.

I start walking towards the living room not even caring about the fact I still have shoes on. I throw myself on the sofa. Well... not exactly throw because that would wake up baby boy who's sound asleep in my arms instead of his carrier. He refused to sleep there, he demanded to be held. that was final for him. Our baby is growing so fast... now he even has demands. Not that he didn't have any before... he simply has more now. I giggle at my thoughts. They made me forget about our current situation even if for just a moment. Suddenly Jungkook's voice brings me back to our harsh reality.

"Why are you giggling?" He asks walking towards the sofa as well. The sun had long set, casting a dim, melancholic light through the windows making Jungkook's face look even sadder than it was before. But.. is it really just the lighting? Maybe now that we're home and away for his family he had the time to truly process everything that has happened today.

Now we stood in the quietness of our house, the only sound being our thoughts and the occasional little noises Munhee made. I can sense the weight of the emotions threatening to overflow from my roommate as he comes in my direction.

"I was thinking about Munhee."

My roommate just nods and sits beside me on the sofa. He looks tense and worried. But how could he not be? As he said before in the taxi, he feels like shit. And the worst part is that I don't even know what to say to him. I feel a little guilty, if it wasn't for me, Jungkook wouldn't be struggling with something other than his mother's illness. Now he has to lie to her.  It's not easy to tell such lies to your family. I'm scared of even thinking of telling mine. But at the same time this whole situation that's been happening, ever since our Jeju's trip... it's all too coincidentally related to me and jungkook together and Munhee as ours... is fate trying to tell us something or am I trying to search for signs?

Perhaps that's it. It is not my fault fate it's pulling its threads.

Honestly, these past few days so many things have been happening at the same time and now I'm having a hard time trying to cope with it all. It's just hard to make the right choices. I understand maybe I'm trying too hard to comprehend things that my brain didn't even have the time to completely process, but then why does it seem as if we're running out of time in our decisions? Like I can't afford the time to stop thinking through our problems even for a few minutes.

Maybe it's because of the baby's deadline... we now have around four months left. I don't like thinking about how it makes my heart ache. Maybe it's true that maybe Munhee has found his parents. But at the same time, we (or just me, I'm not actually sure) don't want to let the baby boy go, it's also so hard to come to terms with this fact. If it is a fact.... I guess I just don't seem to know what the truth and what I want to be the truth anymore.

Letting a long sigh escape my lips I glance at my roommate. He's now sitting with his back reclined on the sofa, his head thrown backward as he stares at the ceiling. I open my mouth to say something but I'm not sure what I am supposed to say.

After a moment I decide to stay silent, maybe he doesn't want to talk about anything right now. I don't want to force him, he's already had a pretty rough day.

I caress Munhee's tiny back as I let my thoughts invade me once more. These days I've been wondering if am an overthinker since that's practically my must-do thing every other second.