Alhathiam's pov:
I was heading back home, Kaveh finished work much more earlier than me and was already home. My insides were still stirred up after what happend in my office.
I open the door to my house. I walked and wandered around trying to find Kaveh. I walked up to his door and knocked.
- Kaveh? Are you in here-
I said before Kaveh cut me off copmletely.
- HAITHAM DO NOT COME IN.
- Why? Whats wrong?!
I felt kaveh put his weight on the door. He didn't let me open the door. I panicked and banged on the door.
- Kaveh! What's happening! Please let me in!
I shaked the doorknob, I swear to god I was about to break the door if he wasn't putting all his weight on it.
- Please don't come in... I don't want you to see me like this. Just... Give me some time. Please?
He said with a shaky voice. My heart sank hearing him utter those words.
- Please, let me in. I won't be mad. I love you so much and nothing can change that.
I heard him put something on the door and franticly walk around his room. I stayed outside his door and waited. After 5 minutes he opened the door and hugged me.
- Hey Hathiam! I missed you so much!
He was trying to avoid what happend. I was standing there confused. I wanted to know what was going on. I looked at him and muttered.
- Kaveh. What were you doing in your room. Im worried.
His expression changed and he looked at me.
- Its nothing.
It felt like fire was rushing through my veins.
- Its not "nothing". Your eyes are wet like if you cried. Please tell me. I won't be mad, your hair is messy. I just want to help.
He looked at me and burried his face in my chest and sobbed. I took him in my arms while he continued to sob. I dragued him to the couch and laid there with him. I held him in my arms while he continued to cry. I hated seeing him like this. Kaveh mustered up all his courage and told me what was happening.
- Im so sorry, its just... The akademiya has been giving so much work and... all my debt... Its too much to handle.
He wiped his tears off. Right after that, i felt something stick to me. Kaveh ripped it off of me and put it back like it was nothing. I saw where he put it and looked at his wrists. A row of band-aids were placed on his two wrists. My face turned to shock when i realized what Kaveh had done to his wrists.
- Kaveh what did you do to your wrists?
His eyes widened as I spoke those words.
- Im sorry I won't do it ever again!
My heart sank when I saw what state Kaveh was in. I loved him so much it hurt me to see him like this.
- Lets go to the bathroom. I'll clean you up
He nodded and I took him to the bathroom. I started preparing the tub while he just standed there behind me. When I finished that, I got up and went to him. He was still trembling and didn't know what to do. I took off his clothes and band-aids.
- Hold on, why are you taking off my band-aids?
- I dont think you cleaned the wounds before putting the band-aids on. You gotta clean it first.
I looked at his wounds and saw a blurry mess of blood and scars. I don't think it was the first time he cut himself. I felt so bad for him. I got him in the tub and started to wash his hair. He closed his eyes and we both went silent. After a moment. He opened his eyes.
- Haitham stop! There's soap on my eyes!
He pushed himself away and put water on his face.
- Stop moving I didn't finish!
He stopped moving and let me finish washing his hair. When I finished, I made him turn around so I could wash him. He looked calm but disturbed. He hissed sometimes while I cleaned his injuries. Even tho I made sure I wouldn't hurt him. It still looked like he was in pain. I saw the corner of his eyes become wet. He started to cry.
- Kaveh, Im so sorry. Did I hurt you?
- No. But why are you washing me?
He replied in a shaky voice.
- Well... im scared you won't take care of yourself.
He chuckled after the words left my mouth. He wiped his tears away. When I was finnaly done, I grabbed a towel to dry his hair and body. I helped him get out of the tub. I took him to my room and got him some pyjamas. He rolled up his sleeves and asked me.
- Hathiam. Could you please get me some bandages please.
I nodded and left the room. I went to the bathroom once more to get him some bandages. I walked back to my room and saw Kaveh sitting on my bed.
- Could you please give me your arm?
- Yeah.
I placed the bandages on his arm. When I finished, he hugged me tightly.
- Thank you. Thank you so much Hathiam. I love you so much.
He whispered while he rested his head on my shoulders. I lifted his chin to give him a kiss. We fervently kissed for a couple of seconds before I let go of him.
- Kaveh... are you alright? Do you need some time off?
His eyes widened before he said.
- No. I need to finish work. And then all my debt...
He began to trail off about his debt and how many people he owed mora to. When an idea came to mind.
- Kaveh how about this week we could meet up with cyno and tighnari? We could go to the bar and play some tgcf?
Kaveh looked at me and held my hand. He smiled and showered me with kisses.
- Yes please Haitham! It would be great.
He laid down on my bed and sighed. I laid down next to him while holding his hand.
- Im still really sorry about that. Im the worst person ever...
Hearing him speak those words made my heart sank. I squeezed his hand and told him.
- You're not the worst person in the world. You're pretty far from that actually.
He chuckled while he was wiping away his tears.
- Hey Kaveh? Can you promise me something?
- Hmm? What?
- Please tell me when ever something's wrong. Please?
He hugged me and replied.
- Yes. I promise my love.
