Love Blinds

chapter 15

On a sunny Sunday morning, I woke up feeling refreshed and eager to make the most of my day.

After refreshing up,I put on my favourite Sunday dress , a floral pattern that exuded charm and elegance . Today was a special day for me because I planned to visit the church , a place where I  found solace and comfort .

As I stepped outside my home , the crisp morning air gently brushed against my face , invigorating her senses .

I strolled leisurely down the familiar path towards the nearby church , enjoying the peacefulness of the neighbourhood. Birds chirped melodiously,adding a natural symphony to the tranquil surroundings.

Upon reaching the church ,I pushed open the heavy wooden door and was welcomed by the serene atmosphere inside.

The soft , golden rays of sunlight filtered through the stained glass windows , casting vibrant hues across the pews and the polished marble floor . The familiar scent of candles and incense filled the air , instantly putting me at ease.

I made my way to my usual spot , a cozy corner near a beautiful statue of the virgin Mary. 

Taking a seat , I  closed my eyes , feeling the warmth and serenity envelop me . I began to pray , pouring out my heart and soul to the divine , sharing her joys , worries , and challenges.  The church provided me with a sacred space to reflect , find inner peace , and seek guidance during difficult times .

After spending some time in prayer , I decided to participate in the Sunday service .

The choir's melodious voices echoed throughout the church, lifting my spirits and reinforcing my faith . The priest delivered a heartfelt sermon, emphasising the importance of love, compassion, and forgiveness in one's life. I listened attentively, finding inspiration in the words spoken.

Feeling uplifted and spiritually nourished, I left the church with a renewed sense of purpose.

I knew a nearby park with a lush of greenery and blooming flowers, the perfect place to unwind the spend quality time.

Arriving at the park, I found a comfortable bench beneath the shade of towering oak tree. I sat down, absorbing the beautiful scenery around me.

Children played joyfully in the distance, their laughter serving as a symphony of happiness. Couples strolled hand in hand, relishing the tranquillity and each other's company .

Meanwhile I started to think about the events that happened in my life very recently. The relationship between Alex  and I , is is just a friendship or something more than that.

I know he is the biggest playboy in our school, but I just can't ignore my feelings towards him. He is so different around me. His hugs and kisses always comforted me and gave me strength to fight my fears.

The day I had my first makeout with him, made feel like a horny teenager. Yes, I'm a teenager but I never involved myself in those kind of activities.  I always used to think, they are gross whenever I saw a couple making out.

I'm a nerd, so it's not my fault. I think the feelings I'm having for Alex is not just a friendship but something more deeper than it.

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Son, take your cousin brothers to the park, they want to play, my mom said.

But mom I have work to do, I said whinging.

Please, son for me. They have been asking me since the morning. I can't go with them because I have an appointment, she said.

Fine mom, Luca and James let's go , I called the two little monsters.

We are coming big brother, they shouted excitedly running down the stairs.

After sometime we arrived at the park. And they ran to play. Meanwhile I started walking towards the benches near the oak tree. Suddenly I saw Kate sitting on the bench, thinking about something.

Hii sweetheart, what are you doing here, I asked sitting next to her.

Im fine, she replied with a fake smile looking at the children playing.

Kate, sweetheart, look at me, why are so sad and gloomy, I asked anxiously.

She looked at me, her eyes are red and swollen like she hasn't slept at all the night. She is looking so pale and tired and that made my heart squeezed in pain.

Kate please tell me, what happened? I asked pleadingly.

If I ask a question, will you answer me Alex? She asked seriously.

Of course, sweetheart. What is it? I asked curiously.

What is our relationship? Is it just a friendship or something more than that? Because I know you are a playboy and you don't do relationships, she said sadly. And it broke my heart.

Kate I know that you don't believe me, I think our relationship is something more than just a friendship. Why do you think I will break your heart, I said.
But I hate lying to her, but I have to. I'm sorry sweetheart.

Alex, we kissed so many times, I also thought this is something more. But i am scared, to trust you knowing you are a playboy. What if you break my heart, she asked shaking.

I immediately hugged and consoled her, I won't break your heart, sweetheart, I said to her. I feel so guilty about this, I feel so bad for lieing to her face.

We kept hugging each other, looking at the children playing. I have to rethink about this dare. I can't play with her heart like this. I will do an irreversible sin. Even the Lord won't forgive me for this.

Kate is an innocent girl, she is not like other girls. The girls I do night stands don't even care if I stay with other girls, they don't care about anybodies feelings. But Kate does, she cares about everything, that's why she is different from others.

I have feelings for her, this time I won't lie. There are another 5 months left. In the end of that,  I will tell the truth to my friends. I don't care if they laugh at me or not. I just can't hurt my flower.