Let me Love you | TK

Chapter:20

Taehyung's POV:

"Take care of yourself for me."

And he pulls away.
I stop
stop breathing, moving, thinking---

Butterflies invade my veins and I force the freaky creatures out.

This is so new. His touch. His skin. His body. His scent. Him. All of him so new, so new and so incredible---

We're both quiet a moment.
It's Jungkook who finally breaks the silence.
"Will you" he says, and looks away. I peer up at him.
He notices me staring and swallows hard. Stares at ground.
"Will you, uh"-he clears his throat- "will you be upset with me for this?" He can hardly meet my eyes.

"No--no", I say the words too quickly, surprising myself but I know I mean them. "No, it's not that"

His face relaxes in relief before a slight blush creeps up his chubby cheeks.

My chest swells..
Stop being so cute Jungkook.
It's not good. I repeat, IT IS NOT GOOD.

"Then It's my very sincere hope," he says, "that you still are not mad at me when I return."

My heart speeds up at the remembrance of his departure. But I am affecting non chalance in an instant..

He glances at his watch. His lips part with a soft intake of air as if he wants to say something more. But decides against it as he shakes his head ever so slightly, I almost don't catch it and then he turns around, reaching the door with hastened steps.

"Jungkook"

He spins around with big eyes, beautiful and worried.

"Yes?"

I capture his gaze, "You too"

"Huh?" He looks baffled.

"You too take care of yourself, Kook"

He smiles, tilts his head. "For you?"

I mimic the moment, "For me."

Not long after he's out, I hear a loud happy sequeal.

If he get's anymore adorable I swear to God, I will scoop this bunny up and carry him away..

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5 days later:
( Tae's father first death anniversary)

I am having breakfast by myself this morning--not alone but still lonely.

"-Tae" mom's voice pulls me back to present.

"Yes mom? Were you saying something?" I ask.

She sighs. "Is there anything you wanna share with me, Tae?"

I put the fork down and grab napkin, tapping it against my mouth.

"You haven't been yourself lately." She adds.

I remember to smile. "Just office work, mom. Don't worry" I lie, avoiding Jungkook's father jugdy eyes on me. I would have glared back at him if it was any other day.

She places her hand over mine. "Bear"
I know when she calls me that. I know she wants me to open up to her. But I don't know if I am ready. I don't know If I will ever be ready.

I swallow back the lump growing in my throat... "I need to take a shower." I stand up.

Mom looks confused and somewhat heartbroken and it breaks my heart as well cuz I genuinely adore her but I don't know what else to do. Not that I don't love her company, it's just that right now I'm desparate to let my heaviness out in peace and I have no idea how else to find it..