When He Saved Me

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Jake and I walked in the kitchen and were greeted by complete chaos. Taylor Swift was blaring and Nicky Jules and Brooke were all scream singing along. 

Noah was yelling at Ethan to stop eating the cheese that he was about to put in the quesadillas. Asher was in the corner rolling his eyes. 

Nicky grabbed my hand and started dancing with me. Jules and Brooke soon joined in. Brooke grabbed my brothers hand and Jules grabbed Ethan's hand. 

We were all jumping around probably looking absolutely nuts. But I was laughing and I was happy for the first time since I can remember.

-Asher's pov-
I glanced up from my phone to watch the chaotic dance party that was unfolding in front of me. This was a daily occurrence. 

I watched Madison she was laughing and jumping around moving her hips. She was pretty I'll give her that. However it was clear she was used to getting what she wanted. 

From what Jake has told me her parents were always doting on her and giving her everything she wanted. Her dad would apparently bring her some sort of gift every time he traveled and thats if the little princess didn't go with him. From what she pulled this morning she clearly hasn't changed.

 I liked our friend group I liked the way things were I didn't want things to change I didn't want some spoiled brat coming in and ruining everything. 

Jake was also under so much stress and pressure with his job he was working towards getting a promotion. 

I don't know why he told Madison she could come now of all times. And why the fuck would she let us know so last minute clearly she doesn't give a fuck about anyone else but herself. 

She looks at me and we lock eyes she smiles and then looks away shyly. I roll my eyes and look back down at my phone. A notification popped up Ciara was texting me.

Heyy love we on for tonight?

Yes I'll be there in 10.

I was supposed to meet up with Ciara at some bar I would normally cancel on her but I'm grateful for the excuse to leave. I get up feeling eyes watching me as I head towards the door. and I hear Madison asking if I wasn't staying for dinner.

--- Madison's Pov ---

I watched as Asher got up and left not even saying goodbye to anyone. I asked if he was staying for dinner and Noah shook his head saying "he's probs hanging out with Ciara" I

 looked at Jake confused "is Ciara y'all's friend too?" Ethan burst out laughing shaking his head "Absolutely not Ciara is basically Ash's fuck buddy we don't like her." 

Jake rolled his eyes "dude chill will the cussing in front of my little sis." Nicky chimed in "Ciara's just different she just doesn't really make an effort to be friendly with anyone except ash it's not that we don't like her it's just that we have never been given the chance to get to know her right Ethan?" She gave Ethan a pointed look. 

Brooke rolled her eyes, "Nicky babe don't sugar coat shit we don't like her because she's an absolute raging bitch." I laughed at them. 

Just then Noah yelled "Quesadillas are done!" Everyone immediately jumped into action. Nicky was grabbing plates and Jules grabbed a stack of napkins and Ethan started taking wine glasses out and filling them to the brim with wine putting one at every spot but with a stern look from Jake he skipped my spot. 

I rolled my eyes. Jake brought a bag of chips and queso to the table and Noah brought the huge stack of quesadillas.

We all took a seat at the table. I sat in between Jake and Jules. I was surprised that we were all eating at the table at my house we never ate at the table in fact it was rare I ate at all to be honest. 

My boyfriend thought I needed to lose weight which I mean he was probably right. Everyone started piling things on their plate and passing things around and everyone was talking and laughing. 

I looked at my brother he was laughing at something Brooke had said to him. He looked so incredibly happy here and I was so happy for him. He found his family. Plus I totally shipped him and Brooke. 

I put a quesadilla on my plate and tried to focus on the conversations happening around me. Jake and Noah were talking about some football game. Jules and Nicky were taking about going to the beach this weekend and what they were gonna wear and Ethan and Brooke were arguing about who could have the last quesadilla. 

I smiled at them I could see myself finding my place here finding my own family just like Jakey. Those nice thoughts were soon interrupted by not so nice thoughts. 

I could hear Cades voice in my head screaming at me at how worthless and ugly I was and how no one was ever going to love me and want me because I was disgusting. 

I looked down at the quesadilla on my plate half of it was already eaten. You shouldn't have eaten that what is wrong with you you're going to just gain all the weight back you stupid disgusting fat pig. My brain kept telling me over and over again. 

I finally stood up keeping the tears at bay. "I'm super tired so I think I'm gonna take a quick shower and head to bed, thank y'all for everything it was amazing to meet you guys." I smiled at them all. "Goodnight Mads we'll see you tomorrow." Jake smiled at me. As I walked off I heard them all say goodnight.

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I ran up the stairs as fast as I could to the bathroom. I turned the shower water on and bent over the toilet. 

I shoved 2 fingers down my throat and watched as the half of the quesadilla I ate filled up the toilet. I flushed it and tears flooded my eyes but I wiped them away. 

I took off my clothes and got ready to step in the shower. I looked at myself before stepping in. I really was ugly. 

Bruises and scars covered my torso and down my legs and arms. I would have to wear long sleeves for a little bit. 

Nobody can know how bad it was nobody can know what I've been through. I don't want to risk them seeing me the same way Cade saw me and the way I saw myself. 

As soon as I stepped in the shower I collapsed on the floor and just sobbed. 

Maybe this was the wrong decision maybe I should go back to Cade it really wasn't all that bad he was only mean when he drank or if he had a bad day. 

There would be days where he would be so kind to me and make me feel so loved I miss that Cade the one I fell in love with the one I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. 

After showering I ran to my room I forgot my clothes and didn't want anyone to see the bruises. As soon as I got in my bed sleep took over.