When Everything is Nothing. (Niall Horan Fanfic)

Speachless

I should've said something.

Thanked him for stopping me,

And showing me someone actually did care.

Informed him that I felt something I had only felt once before, no matter how much I didn't want to admit it to myself.

Even though I knew he must've only liked me as a friend.

But instead I just sat there at a loss for words; stuck in an unbreakable trance.

No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't make words come out.

Until Niall got up to leave.

He stood up slowly, shaking his head sadly, repeatedly saying, "she's lost it; I've lost her," over and over again as he stepped towards the glass door between the balcony and room, sliding it open.

He took one more rejected look at me, and our stares locked.

His big, beautiful eyes welled up with pools of tears, as he tried to keep himself from spilling it all out in front of me.

I opened up my mouth one more time, and as I tried to speak, not a sound escaped my lips.

Niall blinked as a tear ran down his cheek, turned around, and walked towards the door to leave the room, going past my bed and the television until he finally reached the door.

I stood up and attempted to force myself to go after him, yet my body wouldn't move.

"Good bye Brodie. I should've told you I loved you when I had the chance." He whispered to himself, his back towards me. He twisted the door knob, walked out, and shut the door behind him.

And something came over me. I was no longer frozen, I felt full control rush through my veins.

No longer was I going to hide from the world, or my feelings, or the obedience I had towards my stricter self, forcing me to stay alone.

I don't know what that was that came over me, but before I knew it I was stepping one foot in front of the other, until it turned into a sprint, across the room and into the hallway after him.

He was only a few feet down the long, main hall.

I ran to him, spun him around, and pressed my lips to his, taking a deep breath in through my nose, wrapping my hands on the back of his neck, pulling him closer to me.

His body relaxed and I felt his hands go around my hips, pulling my body towards him until no space remained between us.

And, for once in my life, I felt something crazy,

Something crazy, stupid, overcoming, uncontrollable, incomparable, feeling I had never felt before.

And whatever it was, I didn't care,

Because I felt like I fully belonged for the very first time.