summer love (Dua lipa)

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I woke up and everything began coming to my head like a tornado. Dua wasn't in bed anymore probably because the sun looks like it's been up for a while. I got up and I could hear the tv on. I go towards the door but Dua comes in.
"You're up" she says with a soft smile on her face
"Unfortunately because now my head is killing me" I respond and continue walking towards the door but she says something that stops me
"You don't recall anything from last night then?" She asks it takes me a minute to actually recall but I know what she's talking about and this could be my chance to see where this goes but something hits my thoughts. This wasn't normal maybe it was at the party but that doesn't mean it will be everywhere and to everyone so I can't get into this. I have to lie
"Not really did I do something bad" I ask her in a genuine but fake tone and I can see her face form a small frown.
"Not to me but to Devin maybe go apologize" she says and walks past me to get the cup I drank from yesterday. I felt her sadness from where I was standing but I couldn't fall into it.

I walk out my room to the living room, stare at the clock, it's 4pm. Devin is on the couch with chips watching an action sitcom. He looks at me, doesn't say anything, and just nods up at me. I go to the couch and sit next to him he still isn't saying anything. I guess it's up to me to talk then
"What you watchin" I say
"Why do you care" he responds and scoots further away from me okay so he is really upset
"I'm sorry okay" I say and scoot closer to him but he stands up
"Why did you do it only people with messed up minds do that stupid drug and your mind isnt messed up" he starts yelling but if only he knew how messed up my mind felt right now because of my feelings. But he was right about that drug and I'll never do it again.
"You're right I'm sorry I wasn't thinking" I respond and get up too
"Yea you're stupid and I'm no longer taking to any parties" he says and sits back down
"Great idea we need to rehearse anyways 2 more days" Dua says as she coming out the hallway with two fingers raised up, the same fingers that were kissed.
"Right" I reply but I look at devin in a "do you forgive me" face which he read right away
"It's fine square now go" he says

I follow Dua out to the back yard because my guitar is already out there. She sat down and got straight to the point , she didn't make conversation like she always did before starting. Why were her and Devin like my parents right now, too fuckin serious.
"Ready?" She asks as she adjust herself to start singing I nod and begin playing my guitar while she sings "Dance the night". We finished the song did the other five songs too but there was still tension so I decided I would be the one to talk
"So how was your dinner with Robbie?" I ask
"Why do you care" she says, great another "why do you care" I'm not dealing with this. I grab my guitar and get up
"Are you and Devin a married couple now or something why are you guys so upset with me I messed up once" I respond and I start storming away into the house but she stops me
"I don't appreciate a liar" she says as she puts her face into her book
"I'm no liar" I say but even I didn't believe myself
"Now you're a hypocrite" she says not staring at me which pisses me off more. I go back to where she is
"Why are you saying these things" I respond like if I really didn't know
"forget about it you're great at that" she says as she goes back to staring at her book so I start walking away but I stop again and return to her
This was my opportunity to admit that she's right that I do remember clearly what happened but again I can't and I need to make it clear that it just can't happen
"If you're going to insult me sleep in your own damn room" I respond in a passive aggressive tone and I regret it so fast because I don't want to sleep apart from her. I want her hug every night, her morning breath on me, and her morning voice in my ears.
She puts her book down, gets up, and she walks away from me this time.

I start to get angry at myself because I was confused and annoyed. Confused on why I'm feeling these things for another girl and annoyed because I can't figure anything out. This is how my parents made me feel and I hated it, all I want to do when I feel this way is go away but they'll see me leave and yell at me. I look around to see if there is any way to escape, there's a door leading out to bare mountains. It was either that or stay here feeling stupid so I decided to leave. There were cars passing up and down the hill we were on and town was almost 15 minutes away driving I don't want to imagine how much it is walking. I put my hand out so any car could see it passing by and possibly give me a ride. And at some point one did