summer love (Dua lipa)

Sorry

"You're breaking up with her by leaving?" Madison says
"Yep" I say
"You're a coward" she says

Do I even argue with that? She's right I am the most coward person to ever exist. But this time I'm okay with coming off as that, I deserve it. I still can't believe I fell for Rinas trick. Dua deserves better.

"It's fine it's all I've ever been anyways" I say
"Did something happen? You were just saying you loved her and everything?" She asks
"I do but I've come to the conclusion that it's never going to be okay for us to happen" I say
"You're an idiot" she says

Right when I'm about to answer back with probably some more lies and nonsense, someone knocks at the door. Madison stares at me as if she thinks I'm expecting someone but then looks back and heads towards the door when she realizes it's her home we're in. She opens the door and Rina is standing there.

She looks at me with relief on her face. Why is she here fuck.

"Rina hello come in" Madison says
"There you are" Rina says rushing in with her hands open

She squeezes me hard. I hate it every second of her being close to me because we were closer two nights ago. Why does she seem so worried, why did she even come when this is all her fault? Doesn't she care about her sister?

"Madison do you mind if I speak to y/n alone?" Rina asks
"Sure" Madison responds

I look at Maddy with eyes screaming help but she turns too quickly to realize it. I don't want to hear anything Rina has to say. I don't even want to look at her. Let alone even speak with her.

"Why did you run away like a puppy" Rina says
I turn hoping that it'll give her a sign to fuck off but I remember she isn't quite capable of understanding me like Dua does.
"Are you not going to speak with me?" She asks
"For what? It's clear why I left Rina I fucked up" I say
"So you do regret it" she says
"Of course I do I was drunk and weak but even that isn't an excuse to do what I did, Dua deserves the best and clearly that is no longer me" I say
"You're a selfish twat but I love you but just like my sister we'll both move on from you" she says as she gets up furiously

She slams the door as she leaves. Madison comes back into the room. Don't know if she heard or not but I just don't care anymore, I deserve everything I got coming for me.

"What did she want and why did she leave all mad?" She asks
"She's mad because I'm leaving" I say
"I somewhat understand her, I would be mad if my sister is madly in love with someone and that someone just leaves like come one just think about this okay" she says
"I've thought about it more than anything Mads, I told you, write me okay I'll miss you too much" I say
"What if Dua comes back what am I supposed to say?" She asks
"That I ran away again" I say
"It just doesn't feel right to break her heart for you but if it's what you want then I'll do it especially after everything we've been through" she says

I hug her tightly. Tears start pouring out, memories start flooding in. Devin, her, and Dua. The only people who have ever felt like home, not even my parents felt like that. Lost two out of 3 of them and now I'll be leaving Madison too. I hope Devin is somewhere safe away from heartbreak. I hope Dua will find a man who will love her as she will love him. And for Madison I hope the world changes.

I grab her face and kiss her hard on her cheek.
"You please take care of yourself, I will come visit I promise or you can come too" I say
"You better" she says wiping my face with her thumbs
"Are you sure you don't need a ride to the train station" she asks
"Nope you'll convince me to stay and that's the last thing I need" I say
" you're right well then this isn't a goodbye but a see you later and write you later" she says
"Of course" I smile

I wave my hand out for a taxi. Once I enter the taxi I hear her, she's on the radio. I'm so proud of her and I'm happy the world is able to hear the voice I've fallen in love with. She is the world's now and I got lucky enough to know her more than I know myself. I'm going to miss her more than anything I'll ever want to miss or will miss because a big part of me is going to go with her.

"You leaving town?" The driver asks waking me up from my deep depressing thoughts
"Yes I was only here for vacation" I respond
"It's a good place to visit isn't it?" He exclaims
"Sure is I'll probably be back soon" I say remembering Madison
"Well we will be glad to have you back anytime soon" he says

That's sort of the last thing I remember because I fell asleep right after that conversation. I was here already, at the train station.

"Thank you" I say as he hands me my suitcase from the trunk
"My pleasure" he says

I take a deep breath and head towards the train. It was night already and there were only like 3 people here waiting for the last train. Night was going to feel better I told myself, especially because all I needed now was to be lonely and unbothered.

"For the last train please" I say

The lady doesn't say anything she just gives me the ticket.

"Thank you" I still say

"The last train too please" I hear someone say, someone way too familiar, someone British.

I turn back to look, how could it be? There's no fuckin way she's here. I mean i guess it's predictable that I would be here but by the time she could've found out I would have already been gone. Maybe she doesn't know it's me, I'll keep walking, I'll sit far away from her.

But as I get closer to the waiting bench her steps get closer to me too. But still she hasn't said anything and I won't say anything either.

That's how it was the entire time till the train came. I got up and headed towards it. That's when she grasped my wrist tightly, not painfully but a tight grip.

"Don't do this it's foolish if you go" Dua says while running to block me from the train entrance

"Please Dua don't make this harder than it ought to be" I tell her with tears forming in my eyes. I don't even know how I still had enough liquid in me to produce tears after everything

"We can deal with this together I know it will be hard and it'll hurt sometimes but we will be together" she says not moving out of the way

"This summer should have never happened I should have just been the square Devin always claimed I was now he isn't here anymore" and the tears begin coming down like a flood

"Devin would want you to choose what makes you happy and we both know that you leaving isn't that at all" she tells me while she cups my face

"That's what you think now but think about it okay you've reached fame here it'll be hard for us to sneak around" I tell her

"I'll do whatever it takes for us to work I'll do anything I would leave my career behind for you, you hear me I'd lose everything just so I can have you" she tells but that's when I know it's my time to go because clearly I wasn't good for her like she thinks I was, especially with everything going on about what we want

"Dua maybe in another life where we're born male and female or in another life where people don't see the evil where love is" I tell her

"I don't want to wait for another life I want you now we can go to the lake all the time, I'll build you a bloody house there if I have to please do not do this" she cries out

"I'm sorry Dua" I say as I go around her and enter the train

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