How can I love you

Chapter 17

[Emily's POV]

I just told JJ. I can't believe I told JJ. I swore! The whole team knows about me being pregnant, and now their going to know that Hotch is the father. Way to go! I think to myself. I collapse onto the couch and call Hotch. I don't know why I am though.
"Hello?" he answers the phone in a tired voice. I glance at the clock that reads, 12:17 am.
"Oh my gosh, Hotch I'm so sorry, I can call you back tomorrow." I say.
"No Emily, you called me for a reason." he insists. I start to cry.
"Emily?" he says.
"I'm so sorry she was yelling and my head was hurting and I feel like throwing up and.."
"Emily, Emily. Take a deep breath. I'll be their in 10." he says and hangs up. I breathe in and out, in and out. I lay down on the couch and cuddle with my pillow. I need something to hold onto. I need Hotch. What?! I can't love Hotch. My thoughts are interrupted by knocking on my front door. I slowly get up and open it, and there he is.
"You okay?" he asks stepping inside. I shake my head. I feel my face heating up and tears fill my eyes. He wraps his arms around my shoulders and I bury my face in his shirt. I wrap my arms around his waist and we just stand there. Him running his hands through my hair saying 'It's okay', and me crying at every thought inside my mind. We break apart eventually and I sit on the couch.
"Hotch I need to..."
"Aaron" he says interrupting me.
"What?" I ask.
"Special people deserve to call me by my first name." he says. All I can do is smile. Special? He called me a special person!