You know what? Fuck this shit
I'm gonna be the emotionless person I want to be. Dress for the part you desire correct? Pretend to be the human version of Wikipedia. I mean sure I have some friends and I do love. But fuck everyone else. I am the one thing in life I can control. And I'll admit I am a manipulator, I always was and will be. I'm childish and hate to lose. I'll do anything that gets in my way. Did I hear that correctly you moved on and you try to blame me? Well, sweetie whatever sleep at night because I don't give two Flying shits about what you do. You hurt me and stabbed me in the back. I stopped eating and got diagnosed with depression. I didn't leave my room because of you, because I thought I fucked up. But no. You liked someone else and tried to get out of the shit you started.
Ladies and gentlemen, will you please stand? I have a serious announcement or more like characterization. She's not a saint and she's not what you think she's an actress she's better known for the things that she does on the mattress.
You broke me. I left everyone I loved for you. I gave you my heart but you decided to rip it in shreds. But you know what I'm better off without you. I can focus on myself and be the machine I always wanted. And you know what? The rumors are true. I do wish death upon myself. I feel like dying all the time. But I can't because I fail all the time. It was people like you who told me all of my cages were mental. So I got wasted like all my potential. I'm surviving now. I eat just enough to live. I sleep just enough to live. I overwork myself and study endlessly to show you how much better I am than you. So it's safe to say that I'm back to my old self. The person I was in March of 2022. The person who had a heart of stone and worked solely based on logic
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𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘦𝘯𝘥?
Kısa HikayeOne shots that low-key talk about my mental health
