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𝓥𝓸𝓷'𝓼 𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓼𝓮 📍 1:00𝓹𝓶 11/17
Today was my birthday and I didn't feel like doing anything because my other half wasn't here. I haven't been doing anything but sleeping and eating for the last 3 days. I really didn't even want to eat but I know if Von was here he would fuck me up for not eating especially cus the baby needs to eat too.
But that's the reason I don't want to eat because he's not here. Then here I am just looking dumb still staying at his house. I can't stay here any longer.
Like I know this is Von's house so I should be comfortable but being in his house,his space just makes me more sick and emotional that he's not here. People have been blowing my phone up to the point I eventually turned it off. They even came by the house but I acted like I wasn't here and I didn't answer.
I know I have to get back on my feet soon and started working again fir me and my baby. Especially if I want to move out of this house. And fast!
My phone started ringing so I looked at it and saw Lauren calling me but I ignored it. As i was about to turn my phone off she texted me and the text read. 'Don't turn your phone off on me either!' Which caused me so crack a little smile before it died down
I called her back and she answered on the very first ring happy to see me.
"Oh my goodness hey bookie" she said while smiling
"Hey" i said dryly
"Now why you sounding like hat huh? Today is your birthday Jovanni"
"So it's just a regular day like everyday" i sais while shrugging my shoulders
"No it's not it's your special day and you know if Von was here he would beat yo ass for you acting like this on your birthday" lauren spoke the truth
"Well he's not her soooo"
"Your right, but I'm here your best friend since high school and I know that it hurts alot I know it does. It has to hurt to see your lover gone so quickly especially when you have a human forming inside of you that's half of him. But you have to understand that Von was strong and he would want you to be strong too. Which means you grieve a little bit then after the funeral you move on" Lauren said
"But how L? How am I supposed to move on? Von was literally the bobbi to my Whitney. I have his seed inside of me L,I'm living in his house, how am I supposed to move on?"
"You can come stay with me and Durk and we could help you and the little one inside you find a place to live and I know your not gonna forget Von of course not but you have to move on at least"
I sighed knowing she was right but it felt like I was nothing without him.
"Your right" i mumbled and she smiled a little
"Get dressed I'm gonna take you out for dinner even if it's just you and me" she said making me groan
"But I don't wanna" i said sliding down in the bed
"What did we just talk about?" She said causing me to roll my eyes
"Okay I guess" i said
"Yes now be ready by 6"
"Okay"
"Okay I love you bookie bye"
"I love you too" i said then i quickly hung up the phone
I yawned and rubbed my eyes feeling tired.
'Might as well get this nap in before I have to get ready' i ssid shrugging then getting comfy in the bed soon falling asleep
