I'm not scared anymore

Chapter one: That couldn't be me, Right?

'ughh, is it morning again?' The sun shined through my blinds waking me up. I stayed up way too late last night. I rubbed my eyes and peeked through my heavy eyelids, flinching to the sudden bright light coming from my window. I sat up slowly stretching my sore limbs. Last night i stayed up so late writing. It's kind off a hobby of mine, though i only write to myself, i wouldn't let anyone else read my texts.

I walked to the kitchen to make myself something to eat. I was scrolling my phone at the same time. As i sat down to eat a message popped to my screen, it was from my friend Cora. She is my bestfriend and actually my only friend. We've known each other since fourth grade. I didn't have any friends at school before that, i was actually bullied alot, mostly about my appearance, my height since i was so much shorter than others, about my family, my clothes and actually about everything i did. After the years of bullying i kinda closed up and became pretty shy. Nowadays it's pretty hard for me to open up to anyone or talk about my feelings.

That was until Cora came to my class, the bullying still didn't stop but at least now i had a friend. Cora is the only one i opened up about my feelings and the problems with my family. I've kinda took care of myself for as long as i can remember. My parents fought a lot and we're away often. They had their own problems with alcohol and money. My father was also abusive towards my mom, and sometimes me, but only when he was drunk. When they finally separated, my mom soon found a new guy. This new guy was nice..

..atleast to my mom, he didn't like me that much, but we still came along just okay. Until he and my mom had my half brother and- sister, Asher and Reyna. After they were born i was forgotten. I was invisible. I moved away to live on my own as soon as i could. Actually, me moving away was my moms idea, since she didn't like the fact that i reminded her about my dad. I didn't fight back, i've been kinda living on my own for years already, just under the same roof as them.

I opened the message and started to read the text that she sent me.

Cora: Are you awake yet?
You: Yeah, barely.
Cora: Omg, Amelia didn't you hear the news yet?!?
You: what news, no i just woke up.
Cora: They are summoning a new ghoul to the over world. I'M SO EXITED!! I would love to go, this hell is getting kinda lame.
You: why are they summoning a new ghoul, it has been ages from the last time someone was summoned.
Cora: I don't know, that's not the point. They are announcing that lucky ghoul today at the central square at 1pm. You have to come there with me!! I'll see you at our meet spot!
You: Yeah okay, whatever...
Cora: that's my girl!

I sighed deeply and placed my phone on the table. I wonder why they are summoning a new ghoul, and what might be the reason. I went to my closet to get dressed. I picked up a pair of black jeans and an white oversized t-shirt with some simple logo infront of it.

I brushed my long brown hair and put it up to a messy bun. Then i added a little bit of makeup to my face. I haven't been able to leave my house without makeup in years, i guess i'm kinda insecure. I actually kinda like how my face looks, but i'm just kinda scared that other don't see me that way, i know it sound stupid, but k just can't help it. I just always tried to just blend in to avoid conflict.

My eyes are like grayish blue, typical for the water ghoulette that i am. If you look them closely in a right light they look like an ocean blue. I looked myself from the mirror before going to get my shoes and jacket. Well atleast i don't have to worry, there is no chance that they would choose me. Right? I took my black jean jacket from the stand and pulled my shoes on. Clock was now 12.25pm. I had lots of time. The walk to the square was only about 15 minutes long.

I opened the door and took a deep breath of hells warm air. It was almost autumn, but in hell there wasn't much of a difference. Here the air is warm all year round. I started walking toward the square, there was a lot of ghouls going to that direction too. kits were laughing with their friends running to the square, while their parents were trying to stay behind them. Kits were so excited about the summoning even though you can only be summoned if you are over 18. I walked on the side of the road trying to stay out of their way.

I walked towards the park that me and Cora usually meet. After a while i see Cora sitting on a bench in the park. How is she already here, she is almost always late, like from everywhere school, meetings, appointments.. you name it. She noticed me and quickly stood up. "Omg you took forever, let's go!" She yelled at me and ran towards me.

Cora is an earth ghoulette, she has blonde shoulder length hair. Actually her hair is originally light brown, but she likes dyeing it. Know that i've gotten used to her blond her it suits her too. She was wearing a beautiful light blue summer dress with little flower details. As soon as she reached me she grabbed me into a tight hug. I hugged her back, even to i don't like hugs or physical contact that much, but i know it makes her happy so i never bothered to tell her.

"We have to get going, if we wanna be there on time" She says in excited tone. " Ýeah sure, like you were ever on time" i laughed. "Okay, okay i know i'm sometimes late, but this is different, this is too important to be late." She says as she grabs my hand and started pulling me behind her. "Okay, i'm coming, but tell me again why is this so important. There are like thousands of ghouls here and only one is being summoned, there's no chance it's going to be neither of us." I told her. "Come on, don't be so negative. of course it could be us." She says. "Yeah, in your dreams. I don't think that i'd even want to go. Things are finally starting to go smoothly for me. I'm not ready to risk that" I say. "But how can you say that when you don't know what the over world is like. I'm sure it's so beautiful in there. I would give my right hand to see a human with my own eyes one day" She exclaimed. "Well i know that if i was chosen to go, i would have to go alone and leave you here, and i couldn't do that. You're my only friend, you know." i said. "Yeah but i'm sure you could make new friends with ghouls there. You only have to be brave enough to talk to them" she laughed. "Yeah right, and you know that is not happening" i laughed.

We were getting closer to the central square where we could see all the other ghouls there already waiting, Cora pick up the phase so we were almost running, she still dragging me behind her. "Wait up Cora, i'm gonna fall" i laughed.

I was feeling this stinging feeling in my chest, a fear. What if Cora was the chosen one and i would be left behind, all alone. I tried to brush that feeling off and assure myself that that wouldn't happen.

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