Snowflakes

Cold room

I'm typing in this small room.
But it doesn't mean I'm big.
I've been looking around lately.
I can't seem to focus on my studies because of what happened today.

It's Wednesday. My bed is full of papers. Nothing to do. Really? I have to study. I don't know why I can't focus on one thing. My heart is beating 2 per second. Breathing out slowly, closing my eyes.

I wonder where I should go. I wonder how it feels to get a brand new start. Hearing the fact that some people were able to find a new beginning because of those people who ended it. My ending is near. Why can't I find a new start. Where do I begin?

These past few days, I haven't gotten a single clue why you left me silently. I met you a year ago, and it's over now. No hope actually. Nothing.

I wonder what would happen right now if we weren't friends. Would you be living a normal life as I do but not knowing each other?

I'm confused now. What you did yesterday. Why would you do that. You said you didn't want to, but you did. What's going on?

Was it because of those words that you pity someone? Or is it yourself that you pity?

I don't know what
you are doing.

Are you weak?
Or strong?
Or just.. Really really stupid?

Please. Don't make wrong decisions that could destroy your reputation as a human being.

I may not be your friend, but I could see what's within actions. You're trying to do something that would protect you but won't protect the person you are trying to protect.

It's to equalise both path that both of you are in. You're breaking, but who is breaking more?

I know you don't care, but at least, try to fix things yourself. Stand up.

What's the actual truth that you believe in the most? Actions? words? the personality? Or explanations?

Which One Would believe In The Most?