Cut & Abandoned (Lesbian Story)

21

I heard sniffles beside me and I tried to open my eyes but it was too bright.

"Alex?"

"Lights." I said weakly.

"Oh! Sorry." They said. The lights were turned off but a faint glow stayed. I opened my eyes slowly and looked around.

"Why aren't I dead?" I asked.

"You idiot." They cried. I looked over and saw Tara with bloodshot eyes. "You think I'd let you die?"

"But we fought and..."

"That doesn't mean I want you dead. Hudson explained it to me anyways. I'm so sorry Alex. For more than just telling you to leave." I only now noticed she was lightly stroking my arm. My cuts had all been wrapped up. She must have seen them. All of them.

"Where are we?" I asked.

"The hospital down on Ace Street. It was the closest by so the ambulance brought us here."

"How did you...?"

"Know where you were?" I nodded. "After Hudson told me what happened exactly I went to the first place I thought you'd be. The park. Though it was late and I didn't see you. So I came back the next day. And the next. And then yesterday when I saw you... like that."

"Yesterday? What time is it?" I asked.

"1:03 AM. I guess you don't remember much. You were up not long after we got here but you passed out again. Almost gave me a heart attack. I thought... I thought you died." She started crying again.

"Tara..."

"I thought... you were gone. I was too late. You would have died because of me. Because of how stupid I was-"

"Tara stop it! You were the one who saved me."

"But you wouldn't have tried if it wasn't for me!" She sobbed.

"I would have tried earlier if it wasn't for you! You were keeping me alive. Because I love you."

"Still? After how shitty of a girlfriend I was?"

"It isn't that easy to stop loving you."

"But I was so oblivious. You were hurting and I didn't see. Only Hudson did."

"Did you read-"

"Yeah. Alex you could have told me though. I would have helped you and loved you all the more. It's your imperfections that make you perfect to me." Tara had stopped sobbing but silent tears still ran down her cheeks.

"Tara I missed you so much during those couple days." I cried. I'm not sure if I was happy that I could cry again or not. But it felt amazing to have her there to wipe them away.

"I missed you to Alex. I promise you I will never leave you again... that's if you want me to stay by you."

"Of course I do."

"So can I call you my girlfriend again?"

"Only if I can call you mine."

She smiled and moved in to kiss me. "It would be an honor." She sat back up and moved a piece of hair out of my face. "Alex will you let me help you? It hurts to see you with these bandages and to know you smoke and I can't help but feel like it my fault too-"

"It's not your fault Tara. And I'm going to need your helping cleaning myself up."

"Ray and Hudson's too. As well as a therapist..." I raised an eyebrow and she shook her head. "Not my idea. I wanted us to help you but the doctors said you'd have to start going to a therapist or they'd make sure you were sent to a mental hospital for the cutting and suicide attempt. Oh and another thing."

"Yeah?"

"The doctors read the note. And had the police."

"The police? Why would they-? Oh." I wrote down everything.

"They arrested him. And they don't plan on letting him go. They looked into it and got all his buddies that helped do that to you. Turns out they were doing it to a lot of other girls."

"I guess something good came out of that, huh? Besides getting you back."

"Just promise me you won't ever do that again."

"I won't."

"Good. Because I don't think I'm ever letting you go." She kissed me again, this time more passionately.

"What about Hudson and Ray? And... Brianna..." I asked.

"I sent Hudson and Ray home and hour ago to get some sleep. They'll be back later to see you. Brianna wanted to come by and see how you were doing but I made sure she didn't."

"You 'made sure she didn't'?"

"When the police asked me about the note and explaining some of it. They were asking about why you left and I told them about the fight and what caused it. I'm pretty sure they're sending Brianna away. You know, since she's fucking insane, basically raped you, bullied you, made all this happen..." Tara started to get chocked up and stopped to take a deep breath. "I think you understand what I'm getting at."

"Yeah. Can we please just move on from this?" I asked.

"Of course. But you'll have to talk to the police later about Brianna and your step dad. Then we can move on and help you get better."

"Thanks Tara. I'm so glad I have you again."

"Alexandria Anders, never again will you lose me. I love you and I will do whatever it takes to keep you by my side."