SCARS

SEVENTEEN

~Recap~

Conner: I am on my way over. We shall celebrate, my love, with the food of kings!!! PIZZA!!!!

Me: Okay. I'll see you when you get here. :)

Conner: ;)

I was suddenly very frightened that Conner was coming over.

All the Bright Places Quote: The problem with people is they forget that most of the time, it's the small things that count.
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Conner did bring pizza. My favorite kind of pizza. I didn't remember telling him. But I did remember telling my mom while I was talking to him one day. Mom had asked about it and I had yelled it through the house. The box of cheese and yellow pepper pizza sat on my bed in front of us and we each had a slice in our hand. I glanced at him before every bite.

"Stell, I can see you looking at me," he told me.

I looked quickly back own at my slice and took a bite. I was quiet for a few minutes and didn't look up again. Eventually the side of the bed that Conner was sitting on lost weight and I looked up. He picked up the half of the pizza that was left and sat it on my desk. He picked up my laptop and came to rest beside me once again. "What are we going to watch this time?" I ask.

"This time it is a surprise."

He types his name into the password space and my laptop opens with a delighted noise. I stare up at him in shock and try to figure out how he knew what my laptop password was. He sees my shock and, while typing in his Youtube user password, began to explain. "You opened your laptop while I was driving you home from school one day. My side mirror kind of betrayed you."

I nodded and watched him continue to search for a movie on YouTube that wasn't filmed in a theatre or in someone's house which proved to be a problem. I watched him delete the URL of YouTube and put another one in without a second of hesitation. it brought up a site that's home page was covered in movie covers. I saw very few covers that I actually recognized and Conner took advantage of that. "Well we could watch a horror movie...A romance, maybe? A comedy seems inviting."

Conner seemed to be making a decision and as he did so, I slid the laptop off his lap and searched a movie that I had seen the previews for a year or so ago and still wanted to watch.

Warm Bodies

Conner saw me scrolling throw the suggestions 'because I searched for this movie' and read over my shoulder as I looked. He helped search form the movie until we eventually gave up. Conner spoke up a few minutes later, "Why don't we make our own movie?" I gave him a sideways look as he put my laptop back and took out his phone.

"You want to make a movie?" I asked.

"Yeah. Why not?"

I just strugged and he sat down beside me and pointed the camera at me. "My beautiful Stella," he said at the camera. I waved an tried to hide my face in my hands. I heard some clanking noises and Conner's hands started to rub my back. "Come on, Stell. You look beautiful." My face warmed and I muffled through my hands. "You may think so but people that will watch it won't."

He continued to rub my back and tell me that I was beautiful and that he wasn't going to show anyone the video until I brought my hands away from my face. I looked up at him and then at the phone that Conner had rigged somehow with a few books to sit up so it was fiming us. I was staring at it and refused to look away. Conner turned my face toward his gently. "I love you, Stella Gotham and I want you to know that forever. Now," he motioned toward the camera," I have proof for whenever you doubt yourself, you have something to reassure you." I look at his eyes. They were doing the same to my eyes. Looking at them. I was shocked that he cared so much for me.

"I love you too, Conner Bliu."

And then I kissed him. He seemed a little shocked but I didn't stop. I remembered the video before it became a complete make out seesion. I looked at the camera and Conner looked at his lap. Taking his hand, I kissed the back of it. He didn't seem completely crushed that I wouldn't make out with him on camera but he seemed a little disappointed. I picked his phone up off the desk and turned the video off. Conner smiled and I kissed him again and rested my head on his shoulder. "I really do care about you, Stell," he told me. "I care about you, too, Conner."

I handed him his phone and he put in his pocket. Everything was okay again. I wasn't being filmed, atleast. "Stell, do you know why your mom treats you the way she does?"

I shake my head. Conner nodded but stayed silent so I thought that he wanted an explantion.

Taking a deep breath, I began. "When she yells at me, she blames me for my dad leaving but in all the memories I have of my dad, he was good to me. He made sure my mom's drinking didn't get bad and when it did he kept me safe. I guess before she started drinking they were sorta like me and you, but Mom didn't cut and neither did Dad. I thought when I was little that he left cause he thought that I was a bad child or something. Mom can't speak about him without losing control and as far as I know Mom has never hooked up with anyone else. I think my dad was the love of my mom's life and when he left, he dragged what made her world turn with him."

Conner was still quiet and I looked over at him. He seemed lost in thought. "Conner? Are you ok? I know that is sad and all but not that sad."

Conner looked at me, that lost look still in his eyes. "I'm thinking. You said that your dad was the love of your mom's life and you said they were like us." I nodded but he wasn't finished. "Stell, you are the love of my life and I hope I am yours."

I searched his eyes for a second and kissed him. "You are. I couldn't function correctly without you."

"Marry me then. I know that we are in high school and that you probably have stuff that you want to do when you get out of this horrible town but please, please marry me."

I stare at him. He was right. I did want to get out of this damn town and I did love him. I loved him more than anything...But I couldn't marry him. I couldn't force my horrible life onto him. "Conner, you have no idea how much I want to tell you yes, but I can't."

He didn't react the way I thought he would. HIs smile didn't fade and he didn't seem upset. "Okay. Then a promise ring."

God he is persistant. Are you sure about this guy, Stella?

My voice really didn't like Conner.

Yes, I'm sure about him. I love him.

"I'm okay with a promise ring. I just don't want to get married yet."

Conner nodded and looked around for something. I watched him curiously as he did so and I waited patiently until he picked up a tiny ribbon from my desk and come back to the bed. "Finger please."

I held out my hand and Conner wrapped the black ribbon around my finger and tied it. "That will have to do for now."

He kissed the back of my hand and I laughed. "It's amazing."

He laughed and hugged me.

Your not gonna keep that promise.

My voice told me.

Yes I will. The promise I made to  him was to be his forever, and I'm never going to change that.
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Hey guys!!! Thank you so much for reading!!! The next chapter is the last chapter so I hope everyone liked the book. There will be a list of songs at the end of the next chapter. Again, thank you.