I Moved On, Why Don't You

Desperation

Joel's pov

I walked along slowly, letting familiar sights and scents take my mind off of my family's issues and Kyle's rejection, I could deal with all of that later; right now all I wanted was a little peace . . . no thinking about how everything started to fall apart after my dad left, no thinking about how my supposed loving ex-boyfriend didn't even trust me enough to listen to me or how my brother hates my guts or how I'll be raising a baby alone or . . .  I hear my wolf Demmi in my head, his voice gentle and comforting.

'Calm down Joel. You aren't alone, I'm here with you.'

A small smile crossed my lips at Demmi's words and I decided to head home.

"Well look who's here, the little slut himself."

I froze when I heard the voice of Jason, Kyle's best friend directly behind me.

"Please, I don't want any trouble, I just want to go home."

"You can . . . after you do something for me."

"W-What do you mean?"

"Well, I heard how much you like being on your knees and spreading you legs and I'm having a little problem, you see I just had a date with my girlfriend Marcy and she wouldn't put out for me and I figured that since I ran into you______________________."

"No."

"What did you just say?"

"I said no . . . I don't care what Kyle told you or anybody else, I'm not interested."

A loud growl set off warning bells in my head and I was running before I even knew where I was going.

'Don't go into the woods Joel, run home!'

Letting out a whimper at the panic in Demmi s voice I quickly ran in the direction that seemed most familiar to my panicked mind.

'Mama, please help me!'

I let out a sigh of relief, when my house  came into view, but before I could make it inside, a hand wrapped around my waist lifting me off the ground; while the other covered my mouth, muffling my cries for help and I was dragged back the way I had come. I shuddered when I felt warm breath on my ear as Jason whispered threateningly to me.

"You should have just done what I said, now I'm going to make it hurt."

Grunting as he suddenly dropped me to the ground, I slowly backed away, while searching my surroundings for an escape.

'No, we're in the woods . . . we're in the woods!'

'Demmi, please calm down,you're scaring me!'

'Don't you understand Joel, there's no way out and noone to help us! There's no escape!'

Tears started to fill my eyes as Demmi s fear caused my own to become terror and I could hear Jason laughing coldly as he approached me.

"Now that we understand each other are you going to take your clothes off or do I have to cut them off you?"

Jason pulled out a knife and I cringed at the sun glinting off the dangerous piece of metal in his hand.

"P-Please I'm not a whore . . . please don't do this."

"Cutting them off it is."

Reaching down, he jerked me to my feet, while bringing the knife down at the same time, ripping through my shirt.

"Not bad. We're going to have a lot of fun."

His hands groped my chest and I had to force back nausea. I let out a moan of disgust as his fingers found and tweaked my nipples and he lifted my chin bringing his lips to mine.

"You know, I've wanted to do this ever since I first saw you."

"R-Rape me?"

"Yep. I always wanted to hurt you for making me want you. I mean why should I want you of all people, I'm not even gay."

"I-I'm sorry."

Jason continued on as if I hadn't said anything.

"I'm not even gay, but from the first time I saw you I knew had to have you once . . .  but then Kyle told me that you were his mate and how much he loved you and I decided to forget you, but the thing is, my friend Kyle has a big mouth . . . telling me about how good your first time was, how hot and willing you were and I couldn't let you go. Now, just my luck, you stupidly cheated on him and he doesn't want anything to do with you anymore."

Before I could react to his cutting words, he was forcing his tongue into my mouth. I bit down on until I tasted blood and he jerked away from me with a loud groan of pain. The wound on his tongue healed quickly thanks to his wolf's  healing  ability and he was on me before I had the chance to move.

"You're going to pay for that."

Grabbing my head in both hands, he slammed it into a tree again and again until I was barely conscious and when he released me, I slumped onto him, my head lying limply against his neck.

"Now, let's get back to it."

I could feel him lowering my pants and boxers, his hands rubbing and stroking my hips and thighs, before he pressed two fingers inside me, jolting me back to alertness.

"You're going to feel better than I thought. It's a good thing Kyle shut you out or I would never get this chance."

Shut me out . .   our mind link!

'Kyle, please help me! I need you!'

I started panicking again when he didn't reply and Jason let out a knowing chuckle.

"I told you, didn't I? He doesn't want anything more to do with you."

At that moment something broke in me and I surrendered to the inevitable as he stripped me of my clothes and laid me on the ground. I whimpered as he entered me, cried out at the pain of each violent thrust and moaned in disgust each time his lips pressed against mine. I was being raped, but it was my fault wasn't it? I mean I was the one that made him want me, right?  A loud groan in my ear signaled the end of my torture or so I thought . . . until Jason pulled me to my feet and a searing pain went through my stomach. Looking down, I saw the knife sticking out of me and one thought filled my mind and made me fight . . . my baby, he killed my baby! I felt him grabbing me, as I struggled to get away.

"What's wrong with you?! You're acting like you're . . . Oh my God, are you pregnant?!"

He jerked the knife out and dark spots flooded my vision.

"What am I going to do . . . if the Alpha finds out, I'll be banished! I can't become a rogue, I can't give up my status as Beta . . . this is all your fault, you stupid fag . . . if you hadn't teased me, I wouldn't have . . . I'll kill you!"

I barely felt the blows or kicks that battered my body or heard the angry curses that were spouted . . . and I'm glad I lost consciousness before he decided to rape me again. I woke up to the darkness of the forest, my body weak and heavy, my mind shattered and my heart cold and empty. I forced myself to my feet, ignoring my pain . . .  I just wanted to go home, wanted my mom to wrap her arms around me like she did when my dad left and tell me that everything would be alright, but deep down I already knew that nothing would be alright again.