Just my cup of tea

A book of you and me

"I gave my heart away a long time ago and I never really got it back."

Leyla shifted suddenly, her brows furrowed as she adopted a thoughtful expression. I looked away waiting for the questions to flow in but it didn't come so I looked back to her.

"I'm not silly Alice. If you say you don't own your heart then why do you look at me the way you do?" She demanded.

A little more blurry now from the drinks I tried to steady my vision and thoughts to seek out a reply. "It's not ok I know. I tried to just push it aside and keep you at a distance so as to not wrap you up in this. You remind me of her."

She looked away now in thought again and I readied myself for a blow. She remained quiet. "Remember when you asked me why I was so close to everyone but made no effort to even talk with you?" She nodded. "I should never have done that. I should have just gotten to know you rather than fixate on how similar you are to her. It was wrong. I made you see something that's not necessarily there. You're a unique individual and I'm sorry I didn't treat you as such."

Again silence as she just nodded. "Can we start over?" I looked to her hopeful and ashamed. She smiled then, light heartedly and I felt myself relax a little. "Thank you for finally being honest and yes it wasn't the best decision but I can understand your reservations. No real harm so no foul. We can start again and be actual friends under one condition." She eyed me. I nodded. "I would like to know what happened back in your home when you are ready to talk about it that is."

My smile grew wide now. "You have a deal my friend." As we walked back to the room I felt lighter, more sober. It actually felt good to let it all out after so long. We all soon parted ways as I still needed to pack. My flight the next day was in the morning but I thought it best not to sleep. I would transfer in HongKong and the flight to Durban would be 14 hours so I hoped to sleep most of the way if possible.

I picked up my phone to catch up on social media and let everyone in on my flight details and duration of my stay. I posted a video of my terrible singing and hopped in the shower while I let the comments accumulate.

Kate: Don't try out for idols

Me: Oh yeah? I'd like to see you do better 😆

Me: Rather I'd like to hear you do better 👀

Kate: That's never gonna happen 😅

Me: Not fair you heard me!

Kate: Who asked you to post it then 🤣 Why are awake?? Isn't it like early in the morning?

Me: Well actually I'm coming home tomorrow. The flight is long so I wanna tire myself out so I'll sleep most of the way.

Kate: Really?? As in home home? South Africa Durban home?

Me: Last I checked I was a citizen 😅

Kate: lol shurrup. That's cool. Must be really excited to see your family 😁

Me: Extremely yes 😁

Kate: Why didn't you tell me? I'll roll you one.

How I wish! I doubt she means that..

Me: haha well it's not something to randomly start a convo with and It was a sudden decision. It's gonna have to be a small one because I'm weak now 😅

Kate: Aaah you finally can't keep up 😂 laaaame.

Me: Hey! Give me a break it's been a while since I had the good stuff.

Kate: How long will you be down for?

Me: About a month. Got enough weed to last that long ? 😆

Kate: More than enough 😁

Me: Hahaha oki great I'll be there in two days 😁

If only I could actually get to see her...I shouldn't try to encourage this...It's too dangerous.

Kate: It would be really nice hey

She couldn't mean that?

Me: What?

Kate: To smoke together again

She really thinks that? No can't be. She's just being friendly. Yeah that's most likely it. She's always been so kind and friendly.

Me: Yeah it would hey but that's a bit hectic right?

Kate: Hectic yeah..But not impossible

Wait really?? Is she really saying this? It almost sounds like she really wants to meet again...I don't think I could resist. I didn't expect this to happen. Ok be cool. Be chilled.

Me: Oh How so?

Kate: I might have some time during my break...

Me: Are you sure it's a good idea? I wouldn't want to cause you any stress.

Kate: I'm definitely not sure it's a good idea but it would really be nice to smoke with you again.

No matter how hard I tried now I just couldn't keep the butterflies from erupting. She really does want to see me. I tossed all my reservations aside in an instant.

Me: Yeah it would be great to see your dumb face again too 😁

Oh shit was that too much? Too forward? She's typing...She stopped...oh crap.

Kate: Shurrup..douche

She called me douche...I was instantly filled with delight. I couldn't stop smiling.

Me: Hahaha oki deal. Just tell me when and where and I'll be there.

I wish I could tell her that I'd always be there in and instant if ever she needed me...if ever she wanted me. That's definitely way too far though so I thought it best to step away from the conversation now.

Me: Well I got to go so I'll be in touch 😁

Kate: okaai have a safe trip and let me know when you land.

Me: Will do. Byeee 😁

I tossed my phone aside and plopped on the bed. I couldn't be happier but I really had to practice toning down my facial expressions if possible.

Author's note:

Can you believe it guys? Another upload! I have a good feeling that this is finally it, I'm going to finally complete this book! Thanks for reading! It means a lot! I hope you enjoyed and I hope you guys will continue to support Alice on her crazy journey! 😁 till tomorrow then. Byeee 😆