Just my cup of tea

The Last Bit Of Cheese

Smoking a spliff is like painting a picture, sculpting a statue, writing a song or prose. From the triming of the rizz to the licking of the spliff right down to the last two pulls; stoning is art and for the painter, sculpturerer, song writer or author stoning is complete bliss. Kate was the perfect spliff and stoning with her became my complete bliss. Everyday we grew closer and closer and eventually I knew her inside out. I knew how to make her laugh or cry or fear but most importantly, I knew how to make her think. I could see her mind working and expanding right in front of me. I could see it in the way she went about her day, her responses and questions and her movement, Kate began to dream things she never even thought of before. Just like the scale of libra, Kate brought to me something as equally important; peace. She calmed my mind down, took away all chaos and wrapped me in this bliss with her. Simply by just being herself with me, she gave me a place to belong.

I pulled up to our new smoking spot at the beach and reached for my phone to text Kate when suddenly I hear this tap on my window. Kate stood just outside my door with a goofy smile on her face. "What's up big gangster?" she said as she knodded her head. "You gave me a shock you ass." Pleased with herself, her goofy smile grew as I got out the car. "Wait, don't I need to roll first?" I felt a little smug as I pulled out my cigerette box and handed it over to her. She opened it and pulled out a neatly rolled spliff with a hint of surprise on her face which lasted to seconds and turned into a suspicious look. "so how long did this take you, one, maybe two hours?" she laughed sarcastically. I closed the door and turned towards her, "Ha ha very funny, I rolled it in precicely eight minutes." She eyed me out suspiciously for a few seconds and then broke out in a grin, "I have taught you well."

We wondered over to our corner by the wooden logs and made ourselves comfortable. We sat next to each other with our backs resting on the logs as I contemplated touching the topic of where her boyfriend was and how things were going between them. "So where's (BF NAME)?" She took a pull, blew out and then handed it to me, "He's ok." She paused on a thought. "The funniest thing happened the other day, one of his friends asked about you." She laughed light-heartedly. Stunned, I turned towards her, "Wait what do you mean, who, why?" Could I sound anymore weird and suspect?! No, because I'm and idiot. She chuckled, "yeah I think I talk about you too much." Wait hold up, she talks about me?? "You talk about me?" That was practically all I really heared. "haha yes, I tell everyone about your edits and video's." DAMN HER INDIFFERENT LOOK! As much as I could get her to think I still could never guess what she was thinking. "oh you do hey, well thank you for promoting me, does this mean I have to pay you?" She laughed as she took the spliff back from me, "Your company and a spliff will work just fine as payment." I softly punched her shoulder and turned my head away quickly so she wouldn't see me blushing.

"So what did his friend say?" She looked hesitant for a moment, "Well he just made a comment about how we hang out a lot." She turned to look straight ahead and then snapped back to me "They all so silly and for men they gossip way too much." She just brushed that entire topic away just as fast as she reeled it in. Ouch, does this mean she thinks the idea of us is a joke?? My insides dropped six feet under. But what else did I honestly expect? I mean, just look at her and she has been dating this boy for four years, ofcourse the idea of anyone else coming even romotely close to that was probably a joke. Just a friend remember, I'm just her friend and if at some point it became unclear to me in the past, it was pretty frikken shiny clear right now. She looked a little uneasy and I realized my expression may be giving away my emotions so I instantly gathered myself together. "Yeah well that's the true nature of boys. Im so happy im a lesbian." She burst out laughing, "I like how you are so blunt sometimes." Her phone buzzed, she handed me the spliff before she checked it. "looks like they want to go out tonight." Her eyes lit up as she grabbed my shoulder, "please please come with us." You have got to be kidding me right? The last thing I wanted to do was go out with her and her boyfriend right now. "It will be fun! We can smoke a spliff and dance and you will have an awesome time." She pleaded and honestly I loved the way she wanted to have me around, eventhough it was not in the way I hoped. "Alright fine, but I have to go home first to change." She shot me a sly smile and stood up. "Come on, lets go to your place so you can get ready and I need to do my hair please." She bubbled up as she started for the path back and a sudden rush of excitement filled through me. Maybe I could get used to just being her friend.

We reached my appartment, I took a shower and changed into a smart casual outfit and then joined Kate at the dresser. She sat in front of the dresser with a black dress that flowed down her back and along her legs as she fiddled with her hair. I sat just behind her and began to dry my hair. I could see her in the mirror, staring into it as she fixed up her hair here and there. Suddenly the intesity in the room started to fill as Kate and I both sat in front of this mirror switching our gazes from ourselves to one another. I could feel my entire face heat up and begin to flush. My urge to gently lean in from behind and kiss the side of her temple began to over power me, I could almost feel her her hair brush my cheek. She lowered her gaze for a moment and then looked back up. She was not just some girl, she was a lady. Her beauty was sharp but warm and not only resignated from her outwood apperance but shone from deep inside her eyes. I swallowed hard as I tried to pull my attention back to my hair when suddenly her phone started to beep. A sense of time dawned upon me and I realized we were probably running late. "You all good? Need anything else?" I casually asked as I got off the bed and headed to the sink. "I'm all good, almost done and then we can leave" She called out.

I applied some gel and wax to my hair and rinced my hands before going back to into the room. "Let's take a selfie before we leave, she darted towards me with her camera in her hand and shoved me up against the wall before leaning next to me. We took a series of crazy selfies and as I scrolled through them, I couldn't help but notice that we would make a really cool couple aaaaand I just mentally slapped myself for that thought. We jumped in my car and on the way there we smoked a spliff, joked, spoke about the night ahead and how much fun we were going to have. Little did we know that we were only a few pulls away from the last bit of cheese.

We settled at a table in the club and ordered a few drinks and some shots. Kate and I toasted to a goodnight and then the spiral began. Drink after drink, sip after sip Kate and I sunk deeper into our own little world. We danced and drank and talked and laughed all the while I could only see her, hear her in the crowd she was the only one I saw. She was gentle and caring and I was courageous, bold and a little too drunk. She watched my every move making sure I was alright and able to stand as she guided me to the bathroom. I could see the way I caught her eye, I could see the way she moved with me now instead of around me. They when you like someone you can tell but when you love someone, every one else can tell. The boys were not crazy, they could just see something that I could not believe would ever be possible but there was no mistaking what I saw in Kate's eyes, no mistaking what I felt in her touch. She is mine and I am hers and in this moment I have never felt so loved, so powerful, so complete. I rested my hands on either side of her head, she froze as realization hit her.

My lips finally finding their way home grazed hers gently as I took her in my arms. From that moment I spirled into flashes of pulling her closer, kissing every inch of her face, feeling her soft skin on my finger tips, nothing else existed in this world till we reached the last pull. My spiral came to a dead halt as her boyfriend called out her name. It was as though I woke up from every previous life I spent with her. He shouted at her to leave, gripping and shoving her away as she tried to fight him off. Through hazy eyes and hollow ears I heard her say "I'm not going with you," I saw her pulling her arm away and him tugging on it. I tried to move, I tried to get up but I had no control over my hands or legs. Rage began to build up inside me as instinctly I wanted to protect her and get him away from her but I could not and suddenly all I saw was darkness.