Just my cup of tea

An Empty Bankie

There was a ringing in my ear and darkness all around as I struggled to open my eyes when suddenly a bright light stung my vision. I felt a hand grab my shoulder and began to pull me up. A shock rushed through me as my eyes finally shut open and my vision began to clear up. "Alice what the hell happened!? Are you ok?" Deren a friend of mine that I have not seen in months stood for me bewildered. Everything came flooding back to me all at once; the club, Drinking, Kate, him pulling her away and then came the rage. A flash of his hand on her arm sent me into a fit as Deren tried to hold me down and keep me calm. "Fuck! Fuck! I have to get to Kate! He hurt her and I'm gonna kill him." I shoved Deren over to the side and headed for the car door when Deren gripped my collar and pulled me back. "You are out of your fucking mind if you think I am going to let you drive like this, now sit your fucking ass down and tell me what the hell just happened?"

How could I explain? That I had just lost the love of my life? That through my idiocy I would no longer see her beautiful eyes or smile, or be able to ever again touch her soft cheek. My kept rolling through different thoughts as I tried to wrestle off Deren again; 'was she hurt? If not physically but for sure emotionally, what can I do? I need to get to her. I'm going to kill that bastard for harming her.' Deren held down my arms against the car, "If you calm down I promise I will help you to find whoever you need to!" Suddenly my phone rings, I had completely forgotten where I left it so I dived in the car. There it lay on the back seat floor, my heart began to race as I saw Kate's caller ID.

Alice: "Kate, I'm sorry, are you ok? Where are you? Are you hurt?"

Kate: "Calm down, calm down I'm ok, I'm at home. Are you ok?"

Alice: "I'm-"

I could not hold back any longer, I began to weep. Not because I was sad but because I was so overcome with relief to find out that she was ok and safely at home.

Kate: "Alice"...

Alice: "I'm sorry , I'm sorry. Are you sure you are ok? Did he hurt?"

Kate: "He just hit me but I'm fine I promise."

A knife had just shot through my heart as she said this. He hit her. He hit her because of me.

"Where is he?" I said as I headed towards the car. "Deren let go of me!"

Kate: "Who is that there with you?"

Alice: "My friend Deren, he found me in my car. Where is he?"

Kate: "Let me speak to Deren."

Alice: "Why?"

Kate: "Just put him on the phone."

I was beginning to lose my patience, I could not wait any longer so I gave Deren the phone as I got into my car, I had decided to head to his house. Deren jumped in the passenger seat and cupped my hand to stop me from turning the key. "Let go of me!" I shoved his hand away as he shouted "I got to go, Don't worry I got it,"before he threw the phone in the back seat  and used both hands to grip my keys from me.