I awoke to turbulence, my neck was stiff and mouth dry. I stared out the window, the sight took my breath away. Pink and orange puffs of clouds formed a blanket in the air. The sun poured out its heart for me too see. I in turn, whispered the secrets of my heart and let it float among the clouds.
Completely awake now I decided to practise yet again. After letting out the secrets of my heart in my own way, I sensed this time I would find success.
Scenario 2:
Just as before, I wait outside of what I assume is the exit to her workplace. She finally appears and looks around nervously. My heart pings with guilt, I know she's taking a risk in seeing me. Already I find this version of events to be more realistic. It's a reminder of what is really most important to her and it immediately helps me to keep my mind in check.
She reaches the car and I don't dare jump out but rather wait for her to get in. "Come out and give me a hug!" A warm smile spreads over my face. A soft "Hi" is all I can muster before wrapping my arms around her. Although I feel love bursting out of me I let go without hesitation. "It's good to see you, " I say with a friendly smile. "Let's get going now?" She asks.
After discussing the private beach, I slowly drive us towards it as we smoke and chat like old times. We discuss work, the changes around us and my time in China. She looks more relaxed now and it makes me even more happy to see her smile. I hide it well but everytime she smiles another burst of love explodes inside me. It could fill me for years to come.
We keep our conversation light, something I regret a little. I want to know more, I want to know some secrets of her heart. Not regarding me, but rather just anything from her heart. I want to know that she is happy, that her heart is full and peaceful. I dare not ask such intrusive questions. I don't have the privilege anymore. I can only look for clues now, subtle hints at what truly lies in her heart. I look to her eyes, searching for a hint, I examine her smile, calculating how far it stretches, I take in her laugh, listening intently to its volume. This is all I can do for now.
We finish our spliff while walking on the beach. The need to hold her hand, to hold her, to feel her again is still there but forbidden to me now. I will not dare. We make our way back to the car. A string of pain pulls my heart knowing I will have to part with her , without knowing if I will ever be able to see her again but the overflowing strings of happiness of seeing her now easily overshadows it. We reach her workplace and I turn to her, "Well, we are here. Can I come out to say goodbye now?" She looks around, "Quickly." Her nervousness has returned and I hope this won't be the last image I have of her. We step out and I wait for her to come around the car.
"It was really nice seeing you again Alice." It sounds final. "It was really nice seeing you too Kate." She moves in to hug me, my eyes close at the contact in an attempt to hold in these seconds as long as possible. We break away and she smiles. How I hope she will keep that smile for the rest of her life. "Bye Alice, I got to go now, " she starts to back away while facing me. "Goodbye Kate," I say as I salute and watch her turn to leave.
Author's Note: To my one fan haha, thank you again for reading the previous chapter! My writing skills are not what they used to be so I hope you would give me some feedback :D I'm really grateful that someone is reading my story as it's something I need to let out. It really means a lot! Hope you enjoyed this chapter! I will try to keep uploading as often as possible for you :D
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Teen FictionAlice is a creative writer who has taken on a new challenge of gothic style writing. Her inspiration comes from a girl named Kate at a local coffee shop.
