Sometimes Love Isn't Enough - TheAmbys 2024

Battlefield

I can't watch any more of the show. I really can't. I gather up Skai and our things and leave the dressing room. I can't breathe. I feel as though the walls are closing in on me. As I'm leaving, I tell Patrick that we are heading back to the bus. Once there, I settle Skai in her Crib. switch on the baby monitor and head to the kitchen. Searching the cupboards, I finally find what I've been looking for. I pour myself a large rum and coke, sit down, and soak up the silence. My brain is in overdrive, and the rum is helping to dumb it down a little. I'm not sure how long I've been sitting here until I hear someone enter the bus. Looking up, I  see Mike, giving me a small smile.
"Carlyn, Brendon's looking for you and Skai. He's in a bit of a state. "
"I really don't give a fuck Mike. He's obviously not that worried, or he would've checked here!" I say, taking another gulp of my drink.
"Carlyn, it's not like you to drink....."
"Well, I don't have a reason not to now. I'm no longer pregnant. My boobs have stopped working, so I'm incapable of  feeding Skai, my husband is a liar, a cheat  and a grade A DICK!!!, so why the hell not drink?. Sorry Mike too much information."
"I'm sorry this is happening to you, Carlyn. I swear none of us knew about it. We are all here to support you both. We may be a band, but we are a family. "
I can feel the tears threatening to fall again. I sniff them back and take a deep breath as Mike wraps me in a hug.
"Thanks, Mike, I appreciate that."
I grab my drink and head for our bedroom just as Brendon comes onto the bus.
"Carly......can we talk?"
"Nope...."
"Carly!..
"FUCK. OFF. BRENDON!!...."
He's now following me to our bedroom. As he grabs my arm to stop me, I down my drink, and slam the baby monitor into him. "You'll need this," I tell him as I push past him towards the exit of the bus.
"Carly, where are you going? You can't just walk away!"
"Just fuckin watch me!!! Where I'm going has nothing to do with you.....NOT ANYMORE!!." Through the monitor I hear Skai start to cry.....
"Your daughter needs to be seen to...."
I lift the bottle of rum taking it with me and leave the bus.

**Brendon's POV**

As I enter the bus, I see Carly heading to the bedroom. I really need to talk to her. I thought playing Falling for her would let her know how I'm feeling about all of the shit that Elise and I have caused. I notice the bottle of rum sitting and the glass in her hand. SHIT she shouldn't be drinking when starting meds.
"Carly......can we talk?
She point blankly refuses.
"FUCK. OFF. BRENDON!!" I start to follow her to our room but she double backs on me thrusting the baby monitor into me.
"You'll need this!" She hisses at me as she's heads for the door, just as Skai starts to cry.
"Your daughter needs to be seen to." she shouts as she walks away without looking back.
"Mike, how much has she had to drink?"
"I don't know man. She already had one in her hand when I came onto the bus. She took the bottle with her when she left..."
FUCK ...... "I need to see to Skai. Can you see where she's going for me. I'm worried.."
"Don't you think you should have thought about Carlyn before you fucked Elise Brendon? It's bit late to be worried now!"
"I deserved that, but please Mike?"
"Fine, but just for Carlyn's safety. Nothing else!!"
I pick up Skai and nurse her until her bottle is ready. "Ssssh baby girl everything is going to be ok" I'm not sure who I'm trying to convince myself or Skai.

**Carlyn's POV**

I'm sitting outside the back of the venue nursing my rum. Why the fuck did he have to play falling? Now, there's gonna be speculation and theories all over the media. Brendon's always been great at grand gestures, but he doesn't think things through he just leaps on in without giving a damn about the consequences. Current case in point. I have a quick scroll through social media, and sure enough we are trending on Twitter. #whatsbrendondone #uriesintrouble??. I shut it all down just as quick. I can see Mike trying to keep a distance, trying not to to be seen. I'm not stupid. I know Brendon has sent him.
"I can see you, Mike? I sing. "I know he's sent you. You might as well come and join me."
"Carlyn, don't you think you've had enough?"
"Nope," I say, popping the p."I'm just getting started, Mike. I need this after everything that's happened over the last 6 months. I'm fed up being the strong, responsible one......" I pass Mike the bottle to take a drink.
"Carlyn, I get it, I really do." he states, taking a swig from the bottle, "but it doesn't really help. Yes, at the time, it does, but it's not worth it the next day. Brendon has treated you badly, really badly, but it doesn't stop him worrying about you."
"He has a funny way of showing it......was he worried when he was kissing Elise? He certainly wasn't worried when he had his dick inside her!!" I rage, taking another gulp of rum.

**Mike's POV**

Fuckn Brendon and his dick. I can't believe he cheated on Carlyn. I heard he did it once before years ago, but they worked through it. Now we are all caught in the middle of all this whilst on tour with the other woman. Carlyn's drinking, and I'm trying to keep an eye on her for Brendon. Man, I dont get paid enough for this.

"Mike, I can see you over there, I know he's sent you. You might as well come and join me." I go over and sit beside her. She hands me the rum, and I take a drink. "Come on, Carlyn, I think you've had enough. Let's get you back on the bus. He's worried about you." I shouldn't have said that as she starts ranting about Brendon and what he's done. How could he cheat on her she's kind, funny, thoughtful, and beautiful. She has been nothing but welcoming to me since I joined the band. I can tell you one thing, if she were my wife, I would never do anything to hurt her, but she's not, and those are feelings that I thought I had dealt with a long time ago, but now seeing her hurting like this makes me want to take her in my arms and tell her that she's going to be ok, eventually. Brendon doesn't deserve her.

As Mike and I head back to the bus, passing the bottle between us, I see Brendon standing outside the bus, having a smoke watching us as we approach.
"Christ sake, Mike, I asked you to keep an eye on her not to get drunk with her!!" He states angrily, stubbing out his smoke on the ground.
"PISS. OFF, Brendon, leave Mike alone!"
I'll take her from here....."
"No, you fuckn won't," she yells, pushing me away. "Get your hands off of me!!"
"Carly, just let me help you get ready for bed. You've had too much to drink, plus that doesn't mix well with starting Antidepressants, Im worried..."
"Worried!" she sneers at me. "WORRIED!! The only thing you were fuckn worried about was being found out. You weren't worried when you were kissing another woman, and you certainly didn't give a fuck about me when you were INSIDE her!!!. All the times we've fucked since then who were you thinking about me or HER? Who's face were you seeing, huh?" I am now right up in his face poking him in his chest. "How am I supposed to believe anything you say? You fucker!! I have ALWAYS been faithful to you. There's always only ever  been you!" I huff."We both know that you can't say the same thing. You actually had the cheek to accuse Josh of having a thing for me. Was that your guilty conscience speaking? Were you trying to justify yourself? I LOVED you, Brendon. I thought you loved me too, obviously my love isn't enough for you."
"Carlyn... Don't.....don't do this. Let me just help you." I push past him onto the bus, where Dan, Nicole, and Mike are trying to ignore the events unfolding in front of them. "Hey guys, I'm sorry that you're caught up in the middle of this mess. Don't worry,  I won't be here much longer. Skai an I are going home." I tell them as Brendon, who has now followed me onto the bus, makes his way towards me again. "Don't. You. Fucking. Dare. Come any closer." I yell. "YOU!.......You've done enough damage. I don't need your help, and DO NOT think you are sharing MY bed. There's a spare bunk in with the guys in fact you can sleep wherever or with whomever the fuck you want to. I don't care anymore!!" I yell, slamming the lounge door shut.