Sometimes Love Isn't Enough

Lying, Cheating Heart

**2nd day in New York **

Later on today, we  have an appointment with an OBGYN. Brendon phoned ahead and managed to arrange one.. We had a talk, and he told me his concerns regarding Post Natal Depression. So here we are waiting to be seen. I overheard Elise saying she had booked an appointment for a scan today. I hope everything goes well. I remember the anxiety when we went for ours.
"Mrs Urie.... Hi, come this way. You must be Brendon and Skaila Rose." she says, bending down to greet Skai in her carry seat. "What a gorgeous little girl you are. I'm Dr Bryan, When I spoke with Brendon, he told me about the mastitis and the feeding problems and that your mood has been a bit low. How are you feeling now?"
"I still feel the same. I feel useless, numb. It's kinda hard to explain." I tell her.
"The questionnaire that I got you to fill in while you were waiting was a Post Natal Depression scoring sheet, and given the answers thst you have provided, it shows that you have  a score of 15, which is moderate. We can treat this with a variety of treatments. I would like to prescribe you a course of Antidepressants which will need to be taken for at least 9 months.  These will probably take 2 to 3 weeks  before they start working. I am also going to arrange an online course for cognitive behavioural  therapy as well. This can be done whilst you are on tour with your husband. When you get home, I would like you to arrange some counselling sessions as well." I am looking at Brendon, who's holding my hand, and I'm thinking how,  what's meant to be one of the happiest times in our lives has gone to so wrong. We thank her and leave to fill my script when I suddenly burst into tears.
"Come on, Carly, it's going to be OK. Plenty of couples deal with this every day. Once you start the meds and CBT, you'll start to feel better. We will get through this." We head back to the hotel that we've all been staying in. It's been so nice to be out of the tour bus and to sleep in an actual room.

**Brendon's POV**

We are back at the hotel, and Carlyn has taken her first pill. Both her and Skai are in the bedroom asleep. Pete's just arrived, and we are having a few beers. I  filled him in last night about Elise's positive pregnancy test and about her scan today.
"Dude, what are you gonna do?"
"If she keeps it and it's mine, I will support her decision. I can't turn my back on my child."
"I get that, but how is Carlyn going to handle this. She's just been diagnosed with PND. She's just starting Antidepressants.  which bith you an I know can knock you for six in the beginning. She's feeling pretty shitty about herself. I'm worried about her. I mean, I'm REALLY worried about her...."
"For fuck sake!! So am I Pete!!! That's why I'm waiting for Elise to get in touch. Her scan today will tell her how far along she is and give her a rough due date. If it's not mine, I don't have to tell Carly....." I tell him shrugging my shoulders.
"You need to tell her what happened that night, though it's not fair."
"Pete, I know!!!  but frankly, I've got more than  enough to worry about without you going on about it as well." Just then, Elises text comes through. Once I open it, it could change the course of everyone's lives.
"Well, are you gonna open it or just stare at your phone?"
"I'm scared, Pete..."
"Just open the bloody text."
I take a deep breath and open it. I can't believe what I'm seeing. She's around 11 weeks pregnant. 11 weeks.......it's not mine. We slept together about 13 weeks ago. I'm unaware of the tears that are falling from my cheeks.
"It's not Mine," I whisper quietly.
"Shit, man, I'm sorry......"PETE, it's not mine!" I say louder. Pete looks relieved. Suddenly we hear a small voice coming from behind us.
"What's not yours? Bren ....why are you crying?"
"Pete, what's going on?"
FUCK.... when did Carly come out of the bedroom? I look at Pete anxiously, Pete looks at Carlyn with sympathy. She is now standing between Pete and I looking for an explanation.
"Brendon what the fuck is going on? What's not yours? Someone needs to start talking....NOW!" She whisper shouts.
"Carly, I need to tell you something, and I need you to stay calm. Remember, Skai is sleeping. I was going to tell you the first night I came back from the studio, but you were in labour, so I couldn't."
"Tell me what, Brendon? You're not making any sense..... what have you done? Pete?  Do you know what he's talking about?"
"Leave Pete out of it Carly, it has nothing to do with him. Look, the night of my accident after our fight. I went to the rehearsal space....."
"I know that, Brendon.....that's where you had your accident."
"Yes, but that's not all that happened.....I had a few drinks when I got there. then I had a few more with Elise, who was working that night. I swear I thought I was alone."
"Brendon, for God sakes just spit it out!!"
"I slept with Elise....."

**Carlyn's POV**

Did I just hear my husband right. He fuckn slept with Elise....... Elise, who's pregnant. No.. No..No..not again!!!!
For. Fuck.Sake. You just can't control yourself, can you?" Ishout poking .y finger into his chest. "You'll never bloody learn, will you? Pete, can you please take Skai through to your room?
"Umm yeah, no problem. I'll let you two talk. "
"Talk....TALK!! I'm about to cut this FUCKERS DICK OFF!!!" I scream at Brendon.
Pete quickly takes Skai and leaves..
"FUCK SAKE Brendon, how could you?? Did you not learn anything from the last time? It took everything, and I mean, absolutely, everything in me to forgive you. Then you go and do it again. 7 years later."
"I didn't plan it, Carly. We were both drunk. It just happened."
"Just happened!! No, Brendon, I'm not buying it this time. What about the pregnancy?"
"It's not MINE Carly! ...."
"Christ, I've been such a fool....supporting Elise with this surprise pregnancy all the while you both knew there was a high probability it could br YOURS!! I bet you've had a right good laugh at me. Poor Carlyn, who was so distraught at the thought of losing her husband. Who spent all that time by your bedside willing you to wake up.  Who blamed herself because of our argument!!!!"
"Carly, I'm so sorry....."
"Sorry. FUCKN SORRY!!!! No, Brendon, that doesn't mean shit to me. You've had plenty of time to come clean before now? Why didn't you? Would you have even told me if I hadn't come into the lounge?" I am aware that I am now crying and screaming like a banshee, but I am past caring. Brendon is crying, but I don't care he can go to hell.
"Get out, Brendon....."
"Carly....."
"I said Get.The.Fuck.Out. Brendon. I can't even look at you... you can rot in hell for all I care. I'm done!!...We're done!!."

**Pete's POV**

I knew this would happen. I fucking knew it. I told him to come clean. I can hear Carlyn screaming from next door. Patrick is looking at me for some answers... Skai has woken up, and Patrick is currently trying to soothe her. I hear the door of Carlyn and Brendon's room slam shut and then hear a knock on ours. I open the door to find Brendon, standing there looking broken and dishevelled. I let him in, and he takes Skai from Patrick to try  and sooth her. Patrick is currently looking at us, with a puzzled look.
"Does someone want to tell me what the fuck has just happened and why Brendon is in our room  looking a mess?  No, forget that,  do I even want to know?" he sighs., rubbing the back of his head. I quickly tell him about everything that has happened, about Elises's pregnancy and about Carlyn just finding out about it all.  Patrick looks at Brendon in utter disbelief. "Brendon, what the actual hell man? How could you have been so fucking stupid AGAIN?? Pete, just how long have you known about all of this?"
"Just after Brendon's accident...." I reply meekly.
"Fuck me, Carlyn will never trust you again either. I can't believe you two! You really are a pair of dimwitted idiots!!" He yells.
I watch Patrick get up and head towards the door."
"Where are you going, Trick?"
"To check on HIS wife and OUR friend you pair of dicks."