Sometimes Love Isn't Enough

Enchanted

It's been a week since Brendon returned home. Skai is really enjoying having her dad back home. They've spent almost every other day together. This has given me time to get organised for Christmas. All our gifts are organised, wrapped and ready for the big day. This afternoon, we are off to pick out our Christmas tree and decorate it tonight. Skai is absolutely fascinated by all the Christmas lights everywhere.

Brendon and I are still sleeping in separate rooms. However, we have talked a lot, and he has agreed to try marriage counselling. He's also organised an appointment with a therapist of his own. He agrees that we have to at least try to save our marriage. The bottom line is that we both love each other and our daughter. We also have to consider Skai in all of this as well.

"Carly, are you ready? We need to go find our tree?" Brendon shouts excitedly.
"I'm just coming." I reply. When I come through to the living room, Brendon has Skai in his arms and is bouncing on the balls of his feet. I swear he's worse than any kid at Christmas. The two of them look so cute together. They are almost dressed identical, and he's put her in a little leather biker jacket that matches his. I can't help but laugh at the sight of them, two peas in a pod. This is when it hits me, regardless of everything, these are the 2 most important people in my life.

At the Christmas Tree Farm Brendon keeps Skai entertained by singing along in silly voices to the Christmas music that's playing over the loud speakers. She's loving this and is in fits of giggles. It's nice to feel like a somewhat "normal" family. By the time we get back home, Skai has fallen asleep, so Brendon puts her into her cot whilst I get the decorations out. When I come back, Brendon has the tree potted and sitting ready for decorating, and a bottle of wine opened. By the time we have finished, the house looks like Santa's Grotto, and the wine is empty. Skai has woken up and is currently in Brendon's arms. When she sees the fairy lights twinkling  on the tree, she gets excited. Brendon lifts her up, and they put the star on top of the tree together. After dinner, we put on a Christmas movie, and Skai is playing happily on the floor with her baby gym.
"I've really enjoyed today, Carly. How about tomorrow night we go out for dinner? Just the two of us?"
"Like a date?"
"Yes, it's been a while. I can ask Nicole if she'd like to watch Skai for us."
"Sure, why not. It will be nice to have a night to ourselves."
Whilst Brendon phones Nicole, I open another bottle of wine.
"All arranged, Nicole and Mike will be here at 7 to watch Skai."
"Nicole and Mike.......together?" I ask choking on my wine. "As in together, together?"
"I don't know...nah. I dont think so."
"Bren, you've been on the road and living on the same bus together for weeks. You're telling me that you've not picked up on anything.....Ooh, interesting, " I muse. "They do make a cute couple."

After I've gotten Skai ready for bed and Brendon's given Skai her bedtime bottle, she's sound asleep curled into her daddy's neck. As he puts her down in the nursery
I empty the second bottle of wine into our glasses. When he comes back, he puts some music on.
"Carly, are you trying to get me drunk?"
"Brendon, Boyd, Urie, just what are you insinuating?" I laugh.
"It's nice to just chill like this in the light of the Christmas tree. Dance with me?" He asks, reaching his hand out for me. 
Damn this man is hard to turn down and to stay mad at. "C'mon, babe...." he takes my hand and pulls me off the sofa. He wraps his arms around me, and we start to sway to the music. My head is resting on his chest, and I can feel his heartbeat. One hand is on the small of my back, and the other is playing with my hair. The music changes, and he starts to sing

There I was again tonight
Forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old, tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerity, shifting eyes, and vacancy
Vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is, it was enchanting to meet you
Your eyes whispered, "Have we met?"
'Cross the room your silhouette
Starts to make its way to me
The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks
Like passing notes in secrecy
And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is, I was enchanted to meet you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you
The lingering question kept me up
2 AM, who do you love?
I wonder 'til I'm wide awake
And now I'm pacing back and forth
Wishing you were at my door
I'd open up, and you would say, "Hey,"
It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is, I was enchanted to meet you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
That this night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you
This is me praying that
This was the very first page
Not where the storyline ends
My thoughts will echo your name, until I see you again
These are the words I held back, as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

As I look up at him, his eyes are completely focused on me. I swear I can actually see the remorse in his beautiful brown eyes that are glistening with tears. Those eyes drew me in many years ago. "Carlyn, I love you more than words can say. I always have."
"I love you too Bren". He leans in and gently places his lips on mine. I don't pull away. I kiss him back. His tongue is tenderly seeking permission to enter, and I let it. We are back on the sofa, and Brendon is softly kissing and sucking along my neck and collar bone, unbuttoning my shirt as I pull off his T-shirt, exposing his toned chest and torso. I need to feel his skin next to mine so badly it hurts. As he trails his mouth along my breasts, I run my nails along his back, reaching the waistband of his trousers unzipping them.
"Carly...."
"Sshh Bren....."
He's now kissing me more hungrily. Moving his mouth down my body to the waistband of my shorts slowly lifting me up to remove them.
"Fuck Carly....you are so damn hot".
He's running his tongue up the inside of my thigh leaving butterfly kisses over my pubic area. As he removes his trousers, I can see how hard he is.
"Take your shorts off, Bren. I want you. "
He looks at me with a slight hesitation..."are you sure babe?"
"Now, Bren.."
He slowly pulls my underwear off.
"Christ Carly, you are so damn wet",
He enters me slowly, sucking on my collarbone. God, I've missed him. He's teasing me by deliberately thrusting slowly.
"Bren, I need you to go faster.."
"Not yet, Carly."
I run my tongue up his neck and suck on his neck just down from his earlobe.
"Fuck babe, are you trying to push me to the edge?"
Two can play at that game.
His pace starts to quicken, and his depth deepens hitting my G spot.
"Fuck Bren, that feels so good."
"You like that Babe?"
"You know I do" I wrap my legs around his butt and push him in further.
"BLOODY HELL Carly, keep going like that, and I'll be coming soon".
"Who says we can't go again later?" I smirk at him.
I feel my orgasm rise from the depth of my pelvis.
"FUCK Bren, I'm gonna cum."
I feel my legs start to shake and I know I'm now past the point of no return. As the ripples run through me, I feel Brendon come as well.
"Bloody hell, I've missed you so much, babe. I honestly thought we would never do that again. I thought I had lost you forever."
"In all honesty, Brendon, I thought so too. I was all set to leave, spoke with our lawyer, had him draw up divorce papers..." Brendon looks broken as he listens
"Carlyn. I don't......"
"But then Dan and I were talking just before you came home, and what he was saying made me think. With him and Aja splitting up and almost divorcing the first time and then them trying again. Allbeit they've split for good now, noone can say they didn't try. It made me think Brendon. I've thought long and hard about all of this. I've seen how divorce can affect a child. Hell, I was that child, you know that my childhood was like. I don't want that for Skai. We at least owe it to her, to ourselves to try, but that doesn't mean that you have the green light to cheat ever again. The divorce papers are on ice, but if this ever happens again, if you cheat on me again, I will use them. This is the last time you ever make me feel like this. I've not forgiven you yet, and you need to regain my trust. I love you, Bren. It's always been you. I just can't walk away...." I dont realise I'm crying until Brendon wipes away the tears with his thumb.
"Carlyn, would you have actually used the papers?" I look at him and see his tears falling.
"Yes. but after listening to what Dan was saying....."
"Carly, I never want to lose you or Skai ever. Thank you for giving me another chance."
"LAST CHANCE Brendon, this is your last chance. dont forget that."
He cups my face in his hands, kissing me through our tears.
"I swear I won't.
As we head through to bed, Brendon let's go of my hand and heads towards the nursery.
"Bren?"
"Yeah?"
"You don't have to sleep in with Skai or the spare room anymore. We won't get anywhere sleeping in different rooms."
"I'll just check on her and then be through, ok?"
"Ok"