Unspoken Unbroken

Trying to find lost hope.

It's 6 in the morning, it's already light. I sweep my legs over the bed and stand up. I dress simply and walk downstairs. The milk is almost empty so i have to stop by the store again. I pour cereal into my bowl and then some milk. In my opinion it's brutal to do other wise, but thats just my thought on it.

I eat my cereal in silence, then i start my day just like all the other days.

I start my routine just like i have been doing for the past 2 weeks.

It's been 2 week since the kidnapping of Kaine, two miserable weeks. I miss him, i miss his smile. The way he looked at things in ways, mostly in my ways. He way he looked at me, the way others wouldn't. I miss how he was always there for me, i miss how he would come to me first when things were wrong. I miss how he used to cook breakfast for me every morning since i said that i loved the way he cooked. I miss his hair, his eyes, his walk. The way clothes stood on him perfectly, the way he complimented my clothes. I miss how he made me fit them and give me nice feedback. I miss everything about him, the way he breathe, the way he argued, the way he was a good dad for the cats even tho he didn't even try. His chuckle and laugh, his grin and smirk. The way his laugh sounded when i said something ridiculous.  how he was so careful whit my wounds. Even if i had a single scram anywhere on me, he would act like i was missing a limb. The way he would comb through my hair that one time. Even the way he uses that Damm nickname.

I miss him, Kaine.

It's what i have realised in these two weeks.

I have thought to myself ' what if i had listened to what he wanted to say, what if i wouldn't have gotten out of my bed that night.  That way we wouldn't have came across each other and he wouldn't have slept in my bed. He wouldn't have gone whit me to the store, and gotten kidnapped'. I know i couldn't have done anything about the men,  but i still blame myself for it. I have thought to myself ' what if it was the bad men, the men of nick and henry' maybe they would be looking for me and got Kaine to tell them where i am.

I step into the car and check my route to go past, even tho i don't have to.

I drive that route everyday.

The only thing that gets me out of bed in the morning is the thought of ' what if Kaine is still here'. That thought doesn't want to make me leave jackson and go out there to find him.

The whole town knows me, i know them even tho i didn't ask their name.

I still have his clothes in my trunk layed out perfectly, just in case he comes back.

I drive past the first store which is Macy's. It's the first store that opens in the morning.  Linda walks out and shakes whit her head "you don't need to drive past me anymore Ryann, i'll call you when i get news about him" she says. "I know, but this keeps my mind of  in the morning" i say back. Then i drive of to the next store which is just a few feet away. it's a supermarket so i park and step out.

I walk into the store and search for milk. I got it from the fridge and grab some chocolate bars on my way out. I go to the cashier "hello mandy" I greet her whit a small smile. "hi Ryann, any news of him?" She asks while. scanning the items. "no, I was about ask you. Although i think you have no idea?" I pay for the things i got. "no I'm really sorry, I hope you find him oke" the blond cashier gives me a smile.

I walk out of the store and start the car again.

"No" Robb says. "sorry" madeline says. "I hope you find him" Eric gives me a reassuring smile.

that is the three answers I mostly get.

I walk to the last store which is the old café I used to work at. "hey Katherine" I wave to my ex-boss. I didn't know her name right when I first started but now I know.