i ask for patience (unsent letter to someone close to me)

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I ask that you have patience with me

Some people do not get over things as easily as you do. Some do not find clarity as quickly. Some people's prayers take longer to answer, some people need more time with the Lord before a visible change occurs.

Have patience with me, for I am still learning. Maybe sometimes I ask things not because I am stupid, but because I genuinely don't know. Nothing hurts worse than being told, "if you have to ask...what you're doing is wrong." Because sometimes that's not the case. Sometimes, we ask because we truly are not sure what we did wrong or where we went wrong or if it's okay.

There's clearly a lot about myself that I still have to deal with, and it becomes very hard when I feel like I am being forced out of what I've known and into nothingness.

I know I am a proud and stubborn human being who needs to get her life in check. I know my mind and my heart are not what they should be.

Have patience with me. I am like a child, fragile and needing to be handled with care. I am, at times, easily confused.

Have patience with me. I am taking the steps to better myself, please do not unintentionally get in the way.

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