Don't get me wrong, I love my sister, but sometimes she teases and goes too far. It hits too close to home. And I take it too personally because naturally she tends to hit on my insecurities.
Like the time she told me my hands were fat, simply because "well you said they are" yeah bro like I'm self-deprecating, you're not supposed to confirm it!
Or like today...today she was asking me if I'm racist. I was cleaning so I didn't answer right away and so she's like "she is." And I'm like you know what, stop because somebody...I have trauma okay? I'm not racist!
My stupid ex always tried to get me to say racial slurs and tried to convince me I was racist. Don't fucking tell me I'm racist. Because I'm not, and you miss thirteen year old are too young to even know what that means, and over half the population doesn't know what it actually means.
I'm trying to move on and get better from that emotionally/mentally abusive relationship and she thinks it's funny to hit on those sensitive topics. Talking to her about it hasn't gone anywhere, she simply doesn't understand. Like the fact that I really don't like physical touch. My ex was always trying to touch me and cuddle me and honestly it makes my skin crawl and I hate it. Stay out of my personal space.
Don't show me physical affection because I don't really appreciate it.
Don't joke about things that aren't actually funny. Like I get it you're trying to make a joke but I'm still a walking wound.
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losing yourself
Non-FictionI'm not asking for empowerment, I'm asking you to listen. I think too much and I obsess over things that don't matter. Mature because I don't have a filter. Updated only when I feel like it. //I don't own the artwork on the cover, just feel like it...
