what are we?

lots of questions

~Who could ever leave me, darling?
But who could stay? - Taylor swift~

„You fucking asshole."

He just grins. Oh that grin of his, i just want to slap it off his face.

„We're over. Can't you understand that? Leave me alone for god's sake." I try to keep my voice as low as possible and not burst out screaming at him.

„No, actually no i don't understand. I get it i hurt you whatever but god that was years ago. Come onn, let's just have a little fun!"

„Fun? FUN?! Are you out of your mind? Just leave me the hell alone Aaron." I push him out of my way and run out of the party.

So it was really him yesterday. In the bus. Oh god.

I rub my face in frustration when i feel someone approaching me.
I was about to yell thinking it was Aaron but when i turned around i saw Nicholas instead.

I tilt my head confused what he's doing here.

„Now what's with you huh? Looking a little angry here." Nicholas lets out a chuckle

„Shut up. Is Mateo with you here?"

„Yeah, why?"

„No reason. Well- anyways, bye i guess?" I say and turn around to walk away but he pulls me back by my wrist.

„What's got you so mad?" He asks me.

„Nothing what are you on about."

„Yeah keep lying, but just so you know i can tell when you're lying." He says and lets go off my wrist.

I huff and walk away. I text Layla saying i was going home earlier and she shouldn't worry about me.

Thankfully i only had to walk for about 15 minutes when i finally got home.

I push the door open and immediately jump on my bed. I know i still have to take off my make up and stuff but i'm too lazy for that right now.

All i can think of is closing my eyes and get some rest. So that's exactly what i do.

Me and Mateo were still at the party and honestly i'm really curious why Elena looked so mad. She kind of looked mad but a little hurt at the same time. I mean, not that i care, i'm just a curious person.

I hate her, she hates me, that's it.

Me and Mateo were just walking around with drinks in our hands when he suddenly freezed. He stopped moving and just looked at something, or someone.

I pinch my eyebrows in confusion and follow his eyes to see what he's looking at.

It's a guy. Weird, i've never seen this dude here before.

But why is Mateo looking at him like that?

I nudge his shoulder and speak up
„Dude, why are you staring at the poor dude like that?" I let out a small laugh.

But he doesn't answer, instead he keeps looking at that boy and oh, if looks could kill that guy would've been already dead.

„You alright dude?" I ask him again.

„Oh uh yeah, sorry." He finally takes his gaze off that blonde boy and looks at me.

„Why were you looking at that blondie like that? You looked like you were gonna kill him any second."

„Ah it's nothing i just know him from a few years ago. He moved away but i guess he got back here." Mateo explains

„Oh okay."

I don't ask him any more questions since he seemed a little uncomfortable and just bring up a different topic to talk about. We stay at the party for another hour until we drive back to his house. I just decided to sleep at his house but i basically do that every weekend already anyway.

We arrive at his house and i wait in his room while he gets a matress for me.

After about 30 minutes we go to sleep and i was about to fall asleep until i heard a sob.

I turn around to Mateo but he was dead asleep.

Then i hear another. It's from outside his room.

Elena.

It was Elena.

Why the hell is she crying?!
Fuck what am i supposed to do now.
Do i just get up or do i stay here.

Oh i'm probably one of the last people she wants to see, i'll stay here.

Even though it does hurt me a little knowing she's crying over something right now.

But why do i care so much? I never care. And especially not over someone like Elena. I hate her. But why do i care..

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Kinda short chapter sorry yall but ion know what to write🫣

Well anyways, see you next chapter! 💋

-C