what are we?

detention

~Like we're made of starlight - Taylor swift~

The teacher hands out worksheet for us. 4 worksheets, seriously??

There are about 6 people in here, including me and Nick.

I try to do the work but something is distracting me. Or someone.

Nicholas. I don't know why but i can't get him out of my head and him sitting next to me right now does not make it any better.

I try to shake it off and continue with my work, until after 10 minutes the teacher excuses himself and leaves the classroom.

Nicholas immediately turns to me and i turn to him.

„What's on your mind, Torres?"
He speaks up.

„Huh?"

„Something is bothering you. I can't figure out what, though."

„Yeah, because nothing is bothering me." I can't tell him that i can't concentrate because i'm thinking of him, now can i?

I lay my head down on the table and my chocolate hair falls over my face.

„Nick?"

„Yeah?"

„Someone told me you saved that seat for me on the first day of school, is that true? And don't you dare lie."

I push my hair out of my face to look at him and see him looking a little nervous.

„Uhm, yeah." He admits.

„Why?" I pinch my eyebrows together in confusion.

„Because, i- so i can annoy you. It's fun, you know?"

I scoff and roll my eyes.
„Hey ela uhm.. I heard you cry last night."

My heart skips a beat. What?

„Look, i know we hate each other or whatever but like, if you're going through something, you can still talk to me." He tells me.
Fuck why is he so cute? I wanna scream.

And i'm pretty sure i look like a tomato right now.

„Thank you, Nick. But i'm just dramatic, really."

He smiles softly and we make eye contact.

„Don't think i like you now though, you're a monkeyhead."

I chuckle „Stupid of you to think i would like you."

*****

Somehow the teacher never showed up again and me and nicholas talked the whole time.
He can be pretty fun to talk to, honestly.

But whenever i remember what he did to me, i push him away again.
Just like now.

We or, probably just I had fun talking to him but when i realized i have a reason why i 'hate' him i started distancing myself from him again.

And the worst part is, he had to drive me home.

Seriously i wanted to cry.

We didn't really talk on the way home.

We arrived and i quickly got out of the car.

„Bye monkeyhead." He says but i don't answer and go inside my house.

I greet my parents and my brother and quickly go upstairs.

I sigh and drop my backpack on the ground and change into comfortable pjs.

I take off my makeup and go into my bed.

It was 4:15 pm now.

I put on gossip girl on netflix and while watching i do my homework.

It's just something i always do, watch a show and do homework.
Everyone always says theh can't concentrate like that but i can.

I finish my homework and perfectly on time my mother shouts „Dinners ready, Ela, Mat!"

I sigh and put my stuff into my backpack and turn off my Tv.

I go downstairs and sit down.

„Elena, can you come help me with something first?" My mom asks and goes to the kitchen while i follow her.

„Elena, dear. I'm sorry. I'm unbelievably sorry for everything that i have done and said to you this year.
I have been a horrible mother, telling you to loose weight and barely talking to you.
I know it's no excuse but i have a lot od problems with your father going on ans it was too much pressure and i took it out on you and Matteo. I already talked with Matteo earlier and, me and your father want to get a divorce now." She smiles softly.

I feel tears sting in my eyes and i have a sad smile on my face.

„Come here, darling." My mother says and opens her arms and i hug her immediately.

I cry softly in her arms
„I want to stay with you, mum."
I whisper.

„Then stay here with me and Matteo, sweetie. Your father will move out and we can live happily here. Like we used to."

Hearing those words come out of my mom's mouth made me cry tears of happiness. I don't think i've been this happy this whole year.

„I love you, mum."

„I love you too sweetheart."

I chuckle and we finally pull away from the hug and smile widely at each other.

I wipe away my tears and we go to the dinner table.
My father wasn't here right now and us three had a conversation.

Like we used to back then.
Talking about each other's day and laugh.
God how much i've missed this.

And for half an hour i stopped thinking about Nicholas. Until now.

I don't want to think of him, i can't. I don't want to get this tingly feeling in my stomach when i'm around of him or just even think of him.

I can't fall for him, not again.........

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Idk why but i got kinda emotional writing this lol 😭

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-C