Loyalty ★ { Eustass Kid x F!oc }

XLVI

It was a month after everything happened, and everyone thought I was okay, I appeared to be.. but my sister knew better than to think that, especially after the whole Kid situation. She had to put her own relationship with Killer on hold and it made me feel horrible. I told her to talk to Killer over 100 times yet she wouldn't budge, told me that Killer felt like he also needed to take care of his brother, and that they needed to wait.

I did everything to make all the memories of us go away. All of the love, the kisses, the happiness. I've tried and tried to make it disappear, yet every night when I sleep all I can see is the love we made and the times we had together. I wake up crying most mornings, and I've never felt like this about anyone.

I mean, me, Nior D. Cat, crying over some guy? It's not something you see everyday. And I think that's what worried Lina the most. I cried over Eugene, sure, but that was one night and I've never looked back. But Kid? He was a different story. And that's what I hated.

"Good morning." Lina says as I walk into the kitchen, in my pj's still, looking like complete shit.

"Morning." Was all I said, it was never a good one so why should I say it was? I sat down in front of her and she immediately sighed.

But she wasn't sad, she was annoyed.

"You need to get the fuck up and stop crying. Do something with yourself." Lina huffed and I quickly glared at her.

"It's not that easy."

"I understand it isn't, and I know you loved Kid, but you need to get up."

"Get up? I didn't just love Kid, I cherished him and I would've done anything for him to stay with me."

"And I'm sorry to say this Nior, but he's not here anymore."

I was quiet after this, I didn't say anything else as I got up and fled to my room. I heard her sigh when I closed my door and I felt horrible, I wanted to cry again.. but I didn't. She was right. She always was, after all.

So I did it.

I got into the shower for the first time that week, I knew I needed an everything shower so I completely cleaned myself. I then got out of the shower and did my hair, my face routine, and put on some black leggings that flared at the bottom with a tight sweater that kept me warm, it was December after all. I then put on some short black booted heels, a pair of earmuffs, then I put on jewelry.

Finally, I looked at myself.

Why was I crying when I was this pretty?

I then walked out of my room and downstairs towards Lina who was putting her shoes on. She had been going in the studio for me for a while now, maybe 2 weeks, while I cried all day. But again, she was right, so I was going in with her from now on.

When she saw me, she smiled so bright like the sun and immediately stood and gave me a big hug.

"I'm proud of you! Healings hard, but starting never hurts." She told me and I nodded with a sigh.

"You'll hear me complain and whine all day though." I told her honestly.

"That's fine, you do it all the time." She chuckles and walks me out the door along her side and towards the car.

Once in, she drives until we reached our studio. I got out of the car before she could help me out and walked alongside her into the building. She was quieter than usual, and a lot quicker to get inside and on the phone, but I ignored it and walked past everyone.

They were being bittersweet, probably because everyone in the entire New World knew me and Kid broke up, but I also ignored their attitudes and put them to work immediately. I was going to sing today, I needed to get something out to pay them after all.