Unexpected

Part 77

Sunday evening, my rookie season of Formula One is officially over. I'm going to be on vacation for three weeks before starting my rigorous winter training.

We're in my hotel room, listening to music and chilling. Sangil bites his lower lip and glances at me from beneath his lashes.

"What is it?" I ask, attuned to his moods.

"I have a serious question that I want to ask tonight, before we film tomorrow."

"Shoot."

"Why do I feel like you're waiting for the other shoe to drop?"

"What do you mean?"

He looks a little distressed. "I get the feeling that after We Got Married ends our relationship, you're expecting me to break up with you. Is that how you feel?"

I stare at him. Have I been thinking that? I ask myself. I hadn't realized.

"Why are you silent?" Sangil inquires. "Say something."

"Were you expecting me to deny it without examining my emotions?" I ask in return.

"I'm hoping I'm wrong."

"I hope you're wrong, too. But if you're not, I want to be honest." So I take my time and think about what he said. At long last I reply, "As much as it pains me to own up to it, yes, a part of me was thinking that. I don't one hundred percent believe that you'll stay with me after the show is over. It's easy to blame it on all the other couples who didn't speak with each other after 'divorcing' or worse, admitted that it was all an act. But it's also you being an idol."

"Sochi, I love you. I know that I'm not an eloquent speaker, especially not in Japanese, but that's the truth. I don't have any plans to break up with you."

"You'll weather the storm from your fans?"

"I doubt that will be a problem. But if I need to, yes. I'm in my mid-twenties and Snuper is in it's fifth year as in idol group. And don't forget that we started our relationship openly and publicly. You know that people adore us together."

I scoot close to Sangil on the couch and hug him tightly. "I'm sorry for not having complete faith in you when you told this to me earlier. Forgive me?"

He kisses the top of my head. "All is forgiven."

"I love you, Sangil."

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These last several parts haven't been very good, I know. I used to rewatch the highlights from the practices & races to refresh what happened, but I stopped. Which is too bad because I wanted to incorporate things like this into the story.