Tainted : Unneeded love

Arrangement

Sidrani

I tossed and turned all night. I couldn't sleep. I was so uneasy. Once Ishnaya and my stepmother fell asleep. I went to Zaid's room. He was still awake. "Hey." he said turning to me. "How are you feeling?" he asked. "Are you really asking that?" I asked. He laughed. "I guess you want to smoke." he said. I shook my head. " I don't want to get married." I hesitated. "Don't worry, I have a friend in that kingdom. He's Zaki's second brother. He'll protect you." he promised me. I just hoped his friend did protect me. I don't know what Zaki will do to me if we get married. I left Zayn's room and went to the balcony. I wasn't going to kill myself. I just had to tell myself what I was going to do there. I had a mission and I was going to fulfill it. The next day, I was woken up early to go pick out a dress. I got a message that told me to wear black but I wanted to annoy Zaki, I was definitely going to wear white to the ball. I made sure to at least pick an outfit which was bright. I had to meet with him during the day. When I went to meet up with him, it was near a brothel. I heard his mother was a dancer but I didn't care about it. We walked up the stairs to go see her. She was really beautiful. I greeted her. "Hi, you must be Sidra. You're very beautiful." she said. I gave a small smile and thanked her.
He sat next to his mother and put his head on her shoulder. "Whats wrong?" she asked. He shook his head. " You father asked for you and if he sees you like this what will he think?" she mocked. He gave a smile. I looked so genuine, real and pure. " Take her back to the palace and go to your dad. I'll see Sidra later on at the ball." she said. He stood up and we went outside. We walked down the stairs in silence. I just looked at him. He was so different from yesterday. We got to the last stair and we parted ways. I looked at him before I walked away. He's not the same when he's around other people. His father makes him different. I walked away thinking about him. I was different person around my family too. I had my reasons for not being able express my true emotions to them. My dad was really strict and I rebelled. I got it from my mom obviously. She was a different type of breed. I didn't really know her that well but from what I have heard of her, she was rebellious and didn't care about what people thought of her. People say she was the most beautiful woman, they'd ever laid their eyes on. I've seen pictures of her. She was beautiful. I got to the palace and the servants were decorating the palace. It was beautiful. Gold and white flowers on the stair railings, gold and white were the most I could see. I was going to match that. I just couldn't wait for the ball. I was really going to enjoy. Thats what I knew but I was going to ruin it. I helped with the decorations even though I didn't care. When it was time for the ball. I wore my white lehenga. I was planning on getting high and just ruining the party. I sat in my room smoking and drinking. Once I got rid of the smell. I went downstairs. Someone grabbed my arm and pulled me to the side. "What are you wearing?" he hissed. It was Zaki. "Lehenga." I answered. "I told you to wear black." he hissed. "You're also not wearing it." I argued. "Cause I knew you wouldn't wear it and you proved me right." he said letting go of my arm. I felt like he wanted to wear black so he could wear white and embarrass me. I rolled my eyes and went to sit down. Our families made us sit next to each other as they announced our betrothal. I was high and drunk but managed not to say anything. Our parents seemed to like classical music and that was boring for me but the guests seemed to enjoy it. Zaki was just drinking in front of me then he went outside, probably because there was a celebration and he was also bored like I was. I went upstairs to Ishnaya's room. Zaid and Ishan were sitting with her and went to look at Zaki and the balcony. "What are you looking at?" asked Zaid standing next to me. "Zaki." I answered. He was dancing with another girl. She was really beautiful. They were putting on a great show. It seems as though I didn't need to ruin the ball. He was doing it for me. I'm going to make a huge story out of this. We won't have to get married.