Tainted : Unneeded love

Accidental Confession

Zaki

Why would she think I don't care about you? “Because....” I sighed. Oh my word. “Why would you care about someone like me?” she asked. “There's nothing wrong with you, Sidra...” I paused sighing. “Sidra.” I said in a soft whisper. Her brown eyes met mine. “You are perfect. If not to everybody, then to me. To me you are perfect. All your mistakes, your sadness, just everything.”I finally said. I sighed in frustration. I had no words how I could explain to her that I loved her. Oh my word. I just couldn't. She was silent after what I said. She left the room. I didn't know if I should have told her that. It probably pushed her away. I was so embarrassed and just went to sleep. I tried to block out the incident.
The next morning I went downstairs for breakfast still thinking about last night. Did I make a mistake? She was as quiet as ever and she didn't have breakfast. I didn't know what to say to her. It was awkward again. More awkward than the time we almost kissed. She clearly looked annoyed with something. I wasn't going to add on to her anger. Yuvraj was talking to her. She was uninterested clearly. She started laughing, it wasn't a happy kind of laugh. She just glared at Yuvraj. She gave him the death stare. I wondered what she would do if she snapped. She was fidgeting with her hands trying to contain herself. Sidra was going through a lot actually, self sabotage, her brother's death and her own issues. She didn't need anyone else to add on to her problems but my mom was adding on to her problems. I wish I could give her break. “Zaki, do you want food?” she asked. I nodded.
She gave a plate of food. “Anything else?” she asked. I shook my head. She gave me a blank stare and went upstairs. I lost my appetite, I needed to talk to her. I went upstairs, she was brushing her hair. I closed the door. “Sidra, we need to talk.” I said. She ignored me. I didn't want to come off too strong. I stood next to her. “If it's about us then no.” she answered coldy. I sighed. “Why not?” I asked with annoyance in my voice. “There is no us. Zaki, I don't know if I love you. Our relationship is platonic.” she answered. Was I going to except that? I just didn't believe it. “I don't understand why we couldn't just sign a peace treaty instead of us getting married. Ishan and Anjali are in love they can make the peace treaty. Not us. Ever since I came here, I've been through nothing but pain and agony. I just cannot be with you anymore. I'm sorry if I'm coming off as harsh but its the truth.” she said. I just couldn't believe it. She didn't feel the same way. I nodded but I was hurt.