Tainted : Unneeded love

Comforting The Demons

Sidra

I gave a convincing fake smile to the both of them. “Nice to meet you two.” I smiled. This was a pretty “nice” morning really. I continued drinking my coffee silently. Zaki was talking. I was honestly shocked. He seemed like a quiet person. I didn't think he'd be talkative. I just observed him carefully, he was so carefree, at ease and not serious. This was the Zaki I wanted to know, the Zaki I wanted to care for, the one I wanted to love but he might not trust me enough to show me that side.
I just continued drinking my coffee. He was so energetic. I smiled and playfully laughed to myself. I still felt exhausted for no reason. It was actually peaceful. Way too peaceful. Where was mother in law? It's weird, she was always the first person to wake up. She was no where to be seen. “Oh also my mother and father are celebrating their anniversary.” said Zaki casually. Oh well that gives me an opportunity to sleep. I just felt so nauseous for some reason. The air was just so thick. I felt so lightheaded. I took a paper bag that was in one of the cabinets and threw up inside. I felt hot tears rolling down my cheeks. “Sidra, are you okay?” asked Aditya. I nodded breathless. My vision was blurry but I could see my fingers were turning black and it was slowly spreading to my hand. I tried to keep my eyes open but I couldn't. When I woke up Zaki was sitting on the sofa next to the bed. He let out a relieved sigh. “You're awake. I was so worried. Are you okay?” he asked gently kissing my forehead. His lips were soft, like feathers I could say. I felt warm there. I nodded in response to his question. He gave a small smile. “Are you sure? I shouldn't get Yuvraj to exam what happened to you?” he asked. I shook my head. He sighed, he seemed hesitant to ask something. “What about the marks on your wrists?” he asked. I didn't answer. I didn't like to talk about it especially since it had some painful memories attached to it.
I wasn't comfortable yet. “Its okay, I understand you're not yet comfortable sharing these types of things with me. I know but I'll wait, I'm willing to wait for you. It doesn't matter how long it takes for you to trust me. I'll wait for you.” he answered. I just looked at him. I was trying to hide tears that wanted to come out. “It's okay. You're sensitive, you know that.” he said playfully while pulling me into his grip.
I didn't know how to react. No one ever actually took their time to ask me about it or told me those words. He hugged me. I just let it out. I'm mess. “It's okay, you let it all out, cry about it, scream, I'll be here waiting for you and here to comfort you. ” he said. I know he was trying to make me feel better but I've felt numb for almost my whole life. I didn't know if I could trust him but he was only person I had right now who was willing to be there for me and talk to me. “I heard about your fight with your family and if you want to talk to about it or just talk about anything in general, I'm here. If I don't have time, I'll make time for you. You are my first priority.” he whispered reassuringly.