Poison (Jc Caylen fanfiction)

Chapter 18

(Kian's Pov)

I shift uncomfortably in my seat as I stop at a red light. I draw in a deep breath and close my eyes for a moment. I'm still trying to process what had happened back at Jc's house. Why me? I feel extremely confused, and I feel like an inconsiderate asshole. I betrayed my bestfriend. I open my eyes again and the light still hasn't changed. I exhale slowly and gather my thoughts, creating the words I'm about to say.

"What was that?" I choke out. The light turns green so I face forward. From the corner of my eye, I can see Melody shaking her head. "I'm still trying to process that myself." She forces out a laugh. My heart sinks at those words, I don't understand why her words hurt me so much. Then again, I do love her. After about ten seconds of silence I hear a small sniffle. "I'm sorry, Kian." She whispers. "It's fine. Wait, Mel are you crying?" I ask softly, slowing down for another stop light.

"No, why would you think that? It's just allergies." She says quickly, her voice shaking. I remove my hand from the wheel and place it on her knee. "What's wrong? You know I'll always be here." I smile. She shakes her head slowly. "Nothing." She sobs. I decide to stop asking, so I don't piss her off. "I'm sorry, Mel. I'll leave you be." I exhale, starting to drive again. I don't hear anything but sniffles for the rest of the drive. When we pull into the driveway she gets out of the car and runs inside.

I take my sweet ass time, and sit in the car for a little while. In attempt to rid my brain of any feelings for Melody.
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(Melody's Pov)

I open my door quickly and throw myself down on my bed. I didn't hear the front door open, so Kian must still be outside. I turn over on my bed, so I can face the ceiling and get lost in the various pictures. You know, the little hidden doodle-like things that are on the ceiling and sometimes walls? No, you think I'm crazy.. Alrighty then. I can agree with that. I don't know what I was thinking when I kissed Kian. I draw in a shaky breath and turn on my side, facing my nightstand. Suddenly I feel my heart sink, further down than before. As I faced my nightstand, I am stuck staring at a small picture of Jc and I kissing.

I close my eyes and let the tears flow freely. The burning sensation hurts, but feels right. I lay there hopelessly for a few moments, letting everything sink in. I'm startled by a knock at my door. I sniffle, wipe my eyes and clear my throat. "Come in." I say cheerfully, repositioning myself to an upright position. I watch the door slowly creak open and Kian walk in, shutting it behind him. "Can we talk?" He asks softly, I nod. I motion him over to sit beside me and he complies. "So-" He starts, but shortly after, I cut him off. "That kiss."

He nods slowly, looking down at his hands, which are placed neatly in his lap. "That was a mistake," He quickly says. "Wasn't it?" I slowly scan his body language, hoping that of I stay silent, he'll understand that it wasn't a complete mistake. I wanted it to happen. I shift uncomfortably and place my hand on top of his, causing him to look at me. "That's not entirely true, Kian." I state. He furrows his eyebrows in confusion and opens his mouth to speak, but instead I cut him of with a kiss.
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(Kian's Pov)

"That's not entirely true, Kian." She says softly. I open my mouth to protest, and accuse her of lying, but instead got cut off by her kissing me softly. When she pulls away she smiles shyly. "What is this?" I ask honestly. She shrugs and looks down at the floor. "I donno," She looks back toward me. "Whatever we want.." She mumbles. A flutter of excitement flows through me, but is followed by a wave of sadness. I can't date her, that's gonna ruin Jc and I's friendship even more than it already is.

"Think about it. I'm gonna go order a pizza." She announces, before standing up and dissapearing into the darkness the hallway. I take a deep breath and fall backwards on her bed. I need to process this. Sort things out...