your more than a crush

I was falling for you too.

It's been 3 weeks since my fight with Paige. Paige has texted me almost every day since. my phone went off I opened it to check who texted me , I read it she said " I never meant to hurt you" A tear rolled down my cheek. I know she didn't mean to. And a part of me thinks I reacted the way I did because I have never felt this way for anyone. Getting to be with Paige I felt seen and safe. She listens to me when I opened up to her which I never do with anyone and I guess it hurts so much because I have never let anyone in. I know everybody says I'm the " mysterious AJ campos. But with her, I never felt like I needed to hide anything, I could just be. I want to talk to her. I do, but I just can't. I have been trying to get her out of my head. yet she is all I think of. I have liked her for as long as I have known her. She is so adorable, and when she gets nervous and starts to say random animal facts it's impressive that she remembers them and it's super cute.

Since our fight I've not left my room. I know that I was the one that told her to stay away, but I miss her but I just can't tell her. I opened up to her and I don't do that with many people. I really like her and when I'm with her I just feel like a better person and I can't help but smile. I want to be with her because she makes me happy

But she kissed, my sister... I'm not surprised I knew it was too good to be true. Everyone always picks Gabby. I just thought that Paige would choose me . Gabby comes home from school and knocks on my door. "Go AWAY I want to be alone" I am laying on my bed. Gabby comes into my room anyway. I lift my head up from my bed. " Do you not understand the word I want to be alone?" gabby shook her head with a smile I.

" I'm not letting you stay in this room any longer it's sad and I can't watch stop being a wimp you need to see, her."

I slam my head into my bead and groan. " I can't see her she obviously doesn't want to be with me I was dumb for thinking she did they always choose you" I say not lifting my head from my pillow. Gabby sits on my bed and puts her hand on my back

" AJ I've never seen you so hung up on someone like this. Paige has been calling me everyday seeing if your okay. She's really sorry and she wants to talk to you "

I tear down my face and brush it off. I can't give in

" Look if you need to blame someone. me I tried to kiss her. I didn't know that you liked her or I would have never tried to kiss her. AJ blame me and forgive her. I see how happy you are when your around her. And you can't deny it. Your my sister I want you to be happy. I know that Paige makes you happy. So If it makes you feel better blame me please all I want is for you to be happy. And she makes you happy so blame me"

More tears fall down my face. I want to talk to her but if I see her I might fall apart. No one has made me feel this weak in my life before. Gabby was right about that

" come on it's today is the end of your suspension and it's the Election Day we get to find out who won just come please"

I sigh she had a point I had to get out of this room.

" will she be there"

" I don't know but if you don't come willingly I will drag your ass"

" you wouldn't ".

Ten minutes later I'm in Gabby's car riding to school. My anxiety was so high as we pulled up to the high school parking lot.

Gabby leads me into the gym as I start to walk I see drawings on the side of the walls I knew that Paige drew them because they were so perfect, she had puns on them. I smiled. She may have pissed me off but I haven't been able to get her out of my head.

I've loved her for as long as I remember even when she didn't notice me. but when I heard that she kissed my sister I lost it, maybe I was too hard on her I just felt like I was a rebound. As I walked into the gym to reveal who won class president. I sat with gabby. And after they announced that Stacey one even though everyone knew she would win. She gave a small speech and then Paige came out on stage. I could tell she was nervous I could tell by the way her voice shook and the fact that she was fighting with her hands she started to ramble she was saying how King pun wasn't the enemy or victim, but that king pun was bringing life into the school. I couldn't help but smile she kept taking.

"have you ever walked into school and had a bad day or night and and saw a mural and laughed "

Someone clapped in the audience she kept going

"I don't think king pun should be punished for that" Stacy barged in and said that she agreed as the new class president Paige walked off the stage.

And gabby pushed me and kept telling me to go to her I walk up to her. I took a deep breath before I was standing in front of her. Her voice went up when she said hi to me responded awkwardly.

"I just need you to know when I'm with you its not about gabby, it's not a bout trackI interrupted her "Paige I don't really"" just let me finish okay" I looked out at the audience then back at her

"Yeah "

"Ive been really struggling with this stupid prompt trying to figure out what my happiest moment feels like and ive realized that its not just one moment its every moment that i have had with you. falling for you has been the happiest moment of my life... and making this was the easiest thing i have made this semester"

Dillon pulls down the cloth covering this huge mural that Paige made of all of the moments we spent together. From the bathtub to the party, it was beautiful and perfect Everyone gasped All I could say was "wow" I had no words no one has ever done that for me. I couldn't help but smile,

"well It really hasn't been the easiest thing i haven't slept in 24 hours but ... you get the idea"

She smiles at me I got up the courage to tell her what I have wanted to tell her explain why I hid that I was king pun. We were in the center of the gym with everyone in the school watching us I took a deep breath. And asked her

" can i talk now"

"Only if its good"

I chuckled. I took a deep breath in and expressed what I had been holding in and expressed the words i never thought I could.

" I'm really sorry i thorough you under the bus and let you take the fall for me it was really wrong and messed up.. just wanted to spend every second i could with you and every stupid pun and mural and drawing brought us together so i could stop because i was falling for you too"

I looked up at Paige she had a big smile on her face god she was so adorable.

Paige squeals and a say "Okay that was good"

As we are having a moment Tim shouts from the audience.

" can y'all speak up I can't hear you"

I yell  at  him he was so annoying sometimes "Shut up Tim"

I focus my eyes and attention back on Paige she asks me "What do we do"

" think if we kiss they get the idea."

I lean in to kiss Paige. She may be awkward, but she is perfect to me, and I have waited my whole life to be with her. As our lips touched the crowd stood up and cheered.

I pulled away I asked how she was going to  get that to Cal Arts and she pointed at her  Paige looked at me and smiled and then said 

"Thank god this went well could you imagine if she got you turning me down on tape"

I chuckled our eyes met God she was beautiful 

Chantal popped out of no where "Hello" We both gasped Paige was surprised"Oh hello yep there you are"" I was here the whole time did you not see me" Paige backed up and with a smile " I know you are obsessed with me" And I know you took my hair ""Okay one don't flatter yourself you are not my typed so and two how else do you think I'm supposed to cast a love spell I'm exhausted" She walks away

" wow she just called us out," I said I found it funny

We both chuckle. I look at her she smiles at me and I can't help but smile back

" by the way that wasn't just a kiss," I smile "No shit" I pull her in to kiss her again. Paige made me so happy I let down my guard with her, and I have never done that with anyone. I have been in love with her since the first grade but I never got the guts to tell her. And now I have her and I couldn't be happier.