your more than a crush

IM SORRY

I wake up at 10:00am, I roll over on my side but then a sharp pain shoots up my arm i lift up my sleeves and see a huge bruise up and down my forearm.

"Great"

It was the weekend and honestly I was too depressed to give a shit what to do. So I decided I'm gonna spend the whole day in my room because I can't deal with the world right now. I lay back down on my bed and turn on my TV to watch the rookie. I spend most of the day just watching my favorite show to cheer me up. Then my phone goes off. I turn to see that it's Paige calling me again. I just turned off my phone. I just can't deal with anyone right now and I don't want her to know about all that happened yesterday. I turn over and press play. I'm done with everything. I close my eyes and fall asleep.

I hear a knock at my door

"GO AWAY"

"AJ you've been in your room for the past 3 days."

I roll my eyes and put a pillow over my head and groan

"GABBY PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE..."

"AJ COME ON"

"NO.. NOW LEAVE!!!"

"THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN SAY OR DO TO GET ME TO LEAVE THIS ROOM"

"Okay you know what I give up AJ I hope you know that Paige has been freaking the fuck out but yeah you dont give a shit about anything or anyone... good to know."

For a moment it's silent, but then I hear Gabby sigh and start to walk away. I don't know why but hearing her mention Paige seemed to bring me out of my state a little, how could I do that to Paige? After everything how could I just shut her out?

"Gabby wait"

I jumped up out of bed and ran for the door.

"What has Paige been saying?"

"Oh nothing I say could get you out of bed huh?"

I roll my eyes "Don't be an asshole just tell me"

"She's not said anything specifically she's just really worried about you, and upset that you've been ignoring her FOR THREE DAYS"

I run back into my room and grab my phone and try to call Paige it goes straight to voicemail. So I call Dillon.

"Oh wow so now you call"

"Dillon, are you with her? How is she?"

I say worried I never meant to hurt Paige, that was the last thing I wanted to do.

"How is she"

I hear dillon scoff

"DILLON"

I hung up the phone and ran to Paige's house. If she hurt herself or did anything I don't know what I would do with myself. Paige lives about a mile away but I dont stop running. I finally get to Paige's house and knock on the door till it opens I see paige in the doorway she looks like she has been crying non stop.

"Babe......"

She shuts the door in my face i slam my head on the door

"Baby please... open the door"

I start crying I can't lose her i won't survive

"Baby I'm sorry... I'm so fucking sorry just let me in please"

I could hear her crying

"AJ you scared the living shit out of me I thought you were gone or worse."

"I know and I should have never ignored you, you're my girlfriend and I......"

I didn't know what else I could do, I had to be honest and hope it was enough to undo this or at least get her to let me in.

"I.. I love you Paige okay? I love you and I'm so sorry for ignoring you but please believe me when I say I never wanted to hurt you, I just, I couldn't handle you seeing me like that."

Im sitting on the door steps crying " this is all my fault... if I lose you i wont be abel to live with myself.. Your my person paige without you im nothing"

I hear the door open and paige steps outside and sits down next to me and playfully slaps my shoulder and i immediately wince in pain

"What happened, why did you do that?"

"I'm okay"

Paige rolls up my sleeve and sees the bruise on my arm, she looks between my eyes and the bruise for a few seconds and I realized I would have to be the one to talk.

"Paige, this is why I was MIA for three days. When I got home after falling asleep I got into a fight with my dad."

"Did he hit you?!"

"No no nothing like that, I tried to turn my back on him and he grabbed my arm a little too hard. It wasn't exactly the bruise, the fight was bad and I just couldn't bare dealing with any social interaction so I turned off my phone. Im sorry paige i understand if you dont want to be with me anymore"

"Babe. I never said I didn't want to be with you anymore... losing you would break me because I love you too"

I look at paige

"You do?"

"Obviously, what do you think? I just go around making murals for every girl I have a crush on?"

"AJ look if you feel uncomfortable talking about these things with me then that's fine we can work on that but you have to promise to at least tell me there is something wrong in future and don't shut me out. Okay?"

"Yeah... yeah I can do that"

"Good, now about this whole bruise thing. Is this going to become a problem?"

"I don't know, I mean I guess he's gotten intense before but never anything as bad as that"

"What if, and this isn't like a definite just a suggestion, what if you move in here for a while?"

"Paige..."

"I know it's a lot but promise me you'll think about it, especially if he pulls something like that again."

"I promise to think about it"

I didn't realize the time when I left and I knew I would have to walk home again.

"Paige I'm sorry but I have to go, I ran here and if I get home late again"

"Yeah okay go but call me when you get back okay?"

"Promise"

I gave Paige a quick peck on the cheek and ran off, hoping I could make it back before curfew this time. I ran as fast as I could, when I made it home I pulled out my phone to check the time and I was a minute early I ran up to my room and layed on my bed. I grab my phone out to text Paige that I got home safe and on time.

"Hope you have a good night (self-made smiley face)"

"Goodnight! Love u"

As I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep I started to dream about Paige and I.