Someone Called Crush [C]

Chapter Six

The Eid celebration is good but not the best to me. It will be good if we can celebrate it in Assembly Hall and not just in class because there's no singing and no competition whatsoever. It's just food and shabby decorations for Eid. But I'm not in the mood to complain so much as my mind wonder yet another confused situation with Ryder.

After Aya done with her makeup, we plan to stroll around the floor when we bumped into Izzy. That's when Aya got an idea and asked Izzy to tell Ryder that he wanted to take a selfie with him. She did that to give me a chance to have a photo with Ryder. Izzy understood that instantly and went to ask Ryder.

One minute later he came back and said, "He didn't want to. He said he's not a photogenic."

Wow, his choice of words amaze me.

But I feel a bit disappointed when he rejected. Although it's not like the one he rejected was me. As I'm in disappointment, I just walked ahead of them. I didn't realize I'm just a few meters away from Ryder's class and then Ryder came out of class and head this way. I think he wanted to talk to Izzy, who just invited him to take a selfie.

I felt like to smile when I saw him for the first time that day. Moreover, he wear Kurt with soft blue colour. He always handsome but that time he looks exceptionally handsome. We made eye contact first before he turned around really fast and took another way.

I'm stunned.

Did he just ran away from me? Because I turned around to see there's nobody else behind me. Even Aya and Izzy are nowhere to be seen. He took another way as soon as he saw me! What does this mean?

Since then, I've been whining to Aya about his weird behaviour until this day. Why his behaviour towards me becomes more confusing each day? I felt like to cry but have no tears.

"Shh. Shh. Don't think about it too much. Rather than you think about that, you better think about the exam," Aya says as she patted my back.

Oh, yes. We have an exam next week. I start to groan when thinking about math exam. Ever since the covid, my math has been plummeted to rock bottom. There's so many lessons that I missed. Moreover, I'm the type who don't like to study at home. All my homework will be done at school and reviews of the lessons will also be done at school.

Read the text book or note book in my room? No, thanks.

So when a teacher didn't come in, I start to study. I try to push any thoughts about Ryder away from my mind. Despite knowing that math is the subject I lacking the most, I opened the economy textbook and start to read.

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Today is the last day of exam. I have finished answered all my paper exam. There's one more subject left but only a few people took the subject. All people who took that subject has gone to another class to take the exam. This class has become a place for those who has finished their exam.

That was when I heard someone call.

"Ryder!"

I look up to see Ryder entering our class. He and a few of his friends trying to find a place to sit since the table has changed when we are about to take the exam.

"Ryder! Ryder!"

"Here! Nina is here!" All boys that left in the class shout and point at me.

My eyes open wide. What is going on? What's wrong with them? And how did they know that I like Ryder? Aside from my close friends, I didn't tell anyone about it and Ryder is not the type to boast about it either. I look at all the boys one by one before stopping on Mika.

Then I remembered something.

There was a time before exam weeks started. It was PE at that time. Boys and girls were being separated and we mixed two classes when it's PE subject. We were mixed with Ryder class. Girls stayed in the class all the time while boys playing in the field.

When the boys were heading back to class, I heard someone called from the class window near the corridor.

"Nina! Ryder!" I turn to the window but couldn't see who it was because I don't wear my glasses. There's also a crowd of boys in the corridor who was about to go back to their classes. It was when Mika came back to class that I know who it is.

"I called you earlier," Mika said.

"So you were the one who shouted that?!" I almost scream. I felt like to go crazy. There's no way I wouldn't when he shouted out loud like that. I'm certain that all people in the class, as well as the boys in the corridor have heard him.

However, he didn't seem to notice my mind is about to go crazy as he said.

"Ryder was beside me at that time. When I shouted earlier, he hold my hand as if to crush it."

"Serves you right!" I said angrily.

I glare at Mika, who shrugged as I recalled those memories. Then I look at Ryder again. When I meet his gaze, he avoids it. I start to bury my face in my arms as I started to hate all the boys around me. I feel angry, embarrassed and not just that.

I feel scared.

I'm scared that Ryder will further distance himself from me after this. I'm sure of it. How could he not? Do you know what it feels like for your name to be mentioned with someone who you don't have any feelings at all? People keep teasing you and that person although they know that person just having a one sided love.

It's extremely annoying.

That's why I keep burying my face even after the commotion has calmed down. I feel like to run out of the class and never be back again. I'm even considering skipping school if I have to. I feel like to cry but it stopped when I heard Aya calling me.

"Nina, why are you alone on the front? Come join us."

I lift my head up and realized only a few people in the front. My table is in third row of the front. I turn my body around to face Angel, who sit behind me and Aya, who had moved a chair to sit beside Angel.

"Nina, look on your left," Aya tell me.

I frown but did as she asked anyway. I look on my left only to see Ryder is sitting at the table beside Angel's. He sit there with a few of my classmates. I feel something odd then I look toward the boys at the back of the class. His friends and classmates are all at the back.

So, what is he doing here? He and the boys in this class except for Mika are not close at all. He has no reason to sit there. Yet he did. He sit on the table so close to me. My heart start to flutter as I recalled the memories when Mika shouted Ryder's name and my name again.

Mika was grinning as he continued to speak.

"Ah, but Ryder seems to blush at that time."

I look down on the table as I try to hide a smile. Besides feeling so happy, I also felt relieved.

Now I know he doesn't hate me.

~to be continued~

Love-hate relationship?
I don't think it's ever happened
between us.

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