Someone Called Crush [C]

Chapter Three

"Ah, it must be that he is shy." Even Jane also say so. I have asked most of my besties and they all said almost the same thing. This is getting my hopes up.

"Why he make it so obvious that he's shy?" Angel ask.

"That's what I want to know too," I reply.

"Yeah. If it was me, I would just acting cool. Don't worry, Nina. With that kind of behaviour, any girl can be confused," Aya says.

I can only sigh. He always like this. How can I like such a person? Even now, I still don't know the answer. But I can remember clearly, the time my heart beat so fast because of him. The story also like any silly girl who fall in love.

It started in May last year. We have a group assignment. The teacher choose leaders and the leaders will choose their own teammates. In one group must have girls and boys. It happens that Ryder is one of the leaders. He's the first to choose his teammates. That time, I just thought, will he choose me? But then I quickly dismissed it.

He and I were not that close. Moreover, one of the girl he quite close sit just in front of me. So he definitely will spot her first. I didn't care if he's not choosing me because the girl I always done group assignment with is also a leader. But when he truly calling out my name, I'm really shock.

In my head, I keep asking, why? Why? Why? Why? Why me? Although we chat on phone, but in school, we just acted like a normal classmates. Not a close friend. We rarely talk to each other in class. Except when he first approached me at that time. So why? He must saw Fare, the girl he close with sit in front of me, first. Why he chose me instead?

At that time, I can feel my heart beat so fast that I'm afraid it would explode. Another girl, who also in the same group as me, her name is Wawa. When I walked to the group, she was behind me. She intentionally pushed my back while Ryder is in front of me. I thought I would hit his face but his hand grab my shoulder.

I'm hundred percent sure my face have gone really red that you can't distinguish between tomato and my face. No need to mention the heartbeat, it has been doubled. When we do the assignment, I'm in charge of writing down the content. He compliments my handwriting to be neat and pretty. My heartbeat has gone triple.

That time, I already know. I'm in trouble. So, it didn't take long for me to confess. Two weeks after I know I like him, I confessed to him. That time, the seats change so my seat is near to him as I mentioned. I can't be so blunt, so I sent him a picture of red tulip on chat. I have told a couple of my friends what it means, including him. When I confessed, I didn't thought much. I confirm I will be rejected so I can just move on from this feeling.

As expected, I got rejected. He didn't state what is his feelings towards me. He just said he doesn't want any relationship while still being a high schooler. Hearing his answer like that make me respect him. I confessed to him on Sunday and the next Monday I didn't come to school because I'm on my period.

The second day I feel better but he didn't came to school. Turns out, he and Izzy have a program outside of school for a week. I'm thankful for that. Since I won't see his face for a whole week, my heart can have a break. It's perfect time to move on.

When he came back to school, I thought I could look at him without my heart being a time bomb, well I did at first. But then he did something he never did to me before. He provoked me as if to get my attention. First, it's about table. He was straighten his table, he also help Angel's table since their tables are connected. We asked to put our chair on the table before go back home.

That time, I was putting my thing in the bag. When I saw my table position is not the same as Angel, I wanted to fix it. Then Ryder came as if to help me straighten the table. So I continued to put my thing. But he actually just pretend to help me and just let the table like that. It left me dumbfounded. I straighten the table and continued with what I'm doing earlier. I just finished zip my bag when he came and said.

"Other people have put the chair on the table. You're too slow." He said while smirking. It's confirmed that he did it on purpose.

"You think who's fault is this?!" I argued.

Another is when Aya hid his belongings. She loves to hide Ryder's thing. Pencil box, water bottle, calculator and other things. It's still on the same day as the table incident. This time, Aya hide his bags. When he searched, he asked me where is it. I told him it was under the teacher's table. But then he asked me something he never did ever since Aya hide his things.

"You go take it," he said. My eyes went wide in disbelief.

"Why me? I'm not the one who hide it."

"I don't care. You go take it." I'm wondering if there is something wrong with his head. However, I still refuse to listen to him. In the end, Izzy went took the bag for him.

After that, Aya hid his water bottle. When he realised it's missing, he instantly call my name. That time, Aya was beside me, giggling on her own prank.

"Nina, where is my bottle?"

"There. Under the table," I point to the table behind class.

"Go take it," he asked me.

"Why me? The culprit is here!" I point to Aya.

"No. You go take it," he insisted.

I'm truly speechless. How could you ask a person you just rejected to do that for you? He know very well I have nothing to do with Aya's pranks on him. Why he did this? And right after I'm confessed to him at that. I'm confused. Since then I started to reconsider about moving on. Maybe I stand a chance to make him like me.

It's been a year since then. Now, he being shy still don't make me feel certain that he likes me. Although Aya have said that, every time she intentionally mentioned Ryder and me together in front of him, Ryder just smiled. He's the type of person who is annoyed to something, he will make a face. Everything that make him feel annoying, he will make that face. But he smiled when Aya mentioned about he and me and not get annoyed.

Angel also said, when the class need to rearranged table for exam, I was arranging one table when Ryder came and helped me. He's in front of me while the table is between us. I look down at that time because I know it's him and I feel shy. Then Angel said, at that time, Ryder looked at me and smiled!

Then Wawa also know about my secret crush on Ryder. She asked Ryder about the smiling thing. Although I said no but she just couldn't keep secret and Ryder deny it. I feel disappointed but Aya cheered me up by saying.

"If it was you, will you admit it?" She asked me. When I heard her, it made sense.

If it was you, will you admit that you smile to a person secretly?

Not to mention that person is Ryder. He's definitely the type to not admit his feelings easily. He can be confused and hard to read sometimes. He just as difficult as the mathematics formula he always carry around. What should I do?

All of this incidents happen after I confessed to him. What do you guys think? Will your hopes getting up?

Red tulips= confession of love

~be continued~

One plus one is two. Two
plus one is three. If I and you, what
could it be?

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