The secrets of summer

Chapter 28

"I love you." He whispers into my hair. I pull out of his reach, this time I'm the one with the common knowledge of saying those three sweet words that everyone dreams of hearing.

"No you don't." I tell him, using his words against him. I know he doesn't he was caught up in the moment like I was. Still am. Do I love him?

"Yes I do. I love feeling every part of you and knowing that you and I have a special relationship." He tries to convince me.

Most of me wants to give in, to be loved by this amazing man in front of me. I want to let him hold me in his arms and whisper I love you over and over again. There is still the part of me that knows that can never happen because we have different values in life. Different reasons why we could possibly love each other.

"Maybe you're right, we shouldn't be doing this," He looks at me, puzzled by my change of heart.

"The only reason we're together is because I needed a rebound and you messed up with Bri." I try to convince him.

"Whatever the reason may be, I still am glad to be with you. I want to be with you. I honestly do." He tells me.

I cut him off, I can't take any of his words. Even if he said I love you again or he said we have to be a secret because of his friends I can't take it. "Stop. The summer is half way over, I think it'd be best for both of us if we just move on and don't speak again. We will see each other in the halls at school and that's all it'll ever be. No one will know about us and we can easily move on with our lives."

I take a deep breath in, relieved that I got that off of my chest. I hadn't realized how much I needed to tell him. I look into his eyes, so full of light so full of happiness. But they keep losing that spunk, the more I look at him the more upset he seems. Am I doing this to him? Am I slowly tearing down the Colton that everyone loves?

All these thoughts have made me forget about him sitting right in front of me. His eyes are getting closer and the bridge of this nose touches mine. His breathing has deepened back to where it was twenty minutes ago. He kisses my lips lightly and pulls away. I throw my hands on his shoulders and push him back onto the bed.

I like being in control in these situations, I feel powerful. I feel as though he is mine and I am his. But when he is on top, I am his and he has yet to be claimed.

Our lips move in such sync compared to three weeks ago. My body knows him and understands his every move. I can tell where his eyes are looking, how he's feeling. He never needs to express himself. I hope he can do the same for me. Understand me better than I do myself.

I want him as my other half. We have this fire, this heat that Austin and I never had. This feeling I have with him, the intensity you can feel in the room. It's like nothing I've ever felt before. I do love him, I know I do.

...

We walk down the stairs after putting our clothing back on and our friends have come back into the living room. I don't know what they heard but I know that when the guys leave Hope or Cassie will mention it.

"You two sorted out your issues now?" asks Evan. He has a deep voice and when he talks his mouth twists into a smile. I can tell by the way Cassie watches him she has fallen head over heels for this guy and I hope he isn't too stupid to notice.

I look at Colton to wait for him to reply. "Of course." He grabs my hand and kisses my right cheek. I'm surprised by this gesture, he is showing off that we are together. Are we together?

I smile at him and we take a seat on the floor. His left arm is wrapped around my waist and I have my head on his shoulder.

"Now that that's settled, let's get drunk." Squeals Hope. You have to love her. There isn't a way you can't.

She grabs six shot glasses and a bottle of tequila. "We're doing body shots." She announces and we all cheer.

This would be much better with Brianna here. But since she's not talking to any of us, that won't be happening any time soon.