The secrets of summer

Chapter 15

When I wake up Colton is gone and I have seven missed calls from Austin. I know I should answer when he calls me, I just don't know what to say. Do I tell him the truth? Or just parts of it. He sometimes wonders if he's good enough for me, if he can really give me all I need. It breaks my heart that I've been telling him he's more than I need when he obviously wasn't. Why would I cheat? I never thought I would ever do something like that. I don't understand why anyone would do that.

My phone starts ringing and I get very nervous, I don't want to talk to anyone. They all hate me right now. Well Hope and Cassie don't. They love me for being a slut, it makes them look better.

I answer it without looking at the screen "Hello" my voice breaks and I instantly want to hang up.

"Sasha, please listen to me don't hang up." It's Austin, I sit there in silence waiting for him to continue hoping we will just stay here in this peace forever. I wish I could re-due the past week.

"I won't" I whisper, unsure if he could hear me or not.

He takes a deep breath in and starts "Why? Baby I love you more than anything in the world, you know that right? There isn't a thing I wouldn't do for you,"

I start crying again, I always think I'm eventually going to run out of water in my body.

He continues "you hold a special place in my heart. If you could please just tell me why, I could move on. We would be done. I'm not going to let you go until I know the truth."

I begin to tell him but I can't do it yet "I have moved on and you should too."

A loud sound comes through the phone, I don't know what he broke but I know it must've hurt. I hang up before he has the chance to say another word.

Around lunch my mom comes up to get me. "Oh my god, Sasha what is going on in here! Why are you buried under your blankets? Get up young lady."

I don't move, I don't have the energy or effort to put in. She is so self-involved that she doesn't even know how much pain I'm in.

"Austin and I broke up. Okay? Leave me alone please."

She takes a sharp breath in and hugs me under all my layers. "I-I'm sorry dear."

She gets up and leaves, she never was good at helping me during the times when I was depressed.

Around one in the afternoon my phone goes off again, and I groan. This time I read the screen its Tiffany. I answer knowing that this phone call can in no way make my day worse.

"What do you want?" I ask harshly.

"I'm coming over." She answers and hangs up before I can decline.

I try calling her to tell her not to come but she doesn't pick up. I text her knowing she will ignore me.

I sit in my room and think of my life and what a disaster it has become. All the people I have hurt within the last week. My summer plans have been a huge flop. They've gone away as fast as people give up on New Years resolutions.

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