If Only He Knew...

Since I lost you

Daisy arrived home from work at 2 pm the next day, to find her mother in the kitchen, seated in her wheelchair. After setting down her bag, she approached her mother. "Hi mum, did you take your medication today?" Daisy inquired. "Yes," Narcissa replied, though Daisy suspected she was lying. Daisy retrieved the pill bottle and offered it to her mother along with a glass of water. "Have you eaten?" She followed up. "Not hungry," Narcissa muttered, but Daisy insisted, "Mum, you need to eat. I know you'll throw it up, but please try, Mama." Daisy knelt down in front of her mother and took her hands.

Narcissa gripped her daughter's hands tightly. "Did you take your morning pills?" Daisy asked while gazing up into her mother's eyes. Narcissa remained holding her daughter's hands, and Daisy secured the brakes of her mother's chair. "Yes, I did," Narcissa confessed. "I just forgot to take them this afternoon." She felt guilty for having her daughter take care of her.

Daisy watched her mother carefully, knowing that she was nearing the end of her life but not wanting to upset her by speaking of it. So instead, Daisy decided to make her mother some toast even though she knew that she would likely throw it up as a result of her battle with Parkinson's.

After Daisy had brought the toast over, Narcissa's hands and legs began to shake uncontrollably, and Daisy could see the pain on her mother's face. She wished there was something more she could do to help her mother, but she knew that there was nothing she could do to stop the progression of her illness.

Daisy took a deep breath and gently took her mother's hand in hers. "I love you, Mum," she said softly, trying to reassure her. Narcissa looked at her daughter and smiled faintly. "I love you too, Daisy." As she watched her mother struggle, Daisy's heart felt heavy. She knew that the end was coming, but she didn't want to believe it. All she could do now was to offer her mother love, support, and comfort.

As the day drew to a close, Daisy helped her mother get ready for bed and tucked her in. Narcissa's breathing became more laboured, and Daisy knew that the end was near. She sat by her mother's side, holding her hand, and whispered gentle words of comfort until she finally fell asleep. Daisy didn't want to face the fact that her mother was dying, but she knew that she had to accept it. With tears in her eyes, she sat by her mother's side, watching over her as she slept, knowing that the end was near.

It was 7PM, and Daisy was cleaning the house downstairs when she heard the sound of the stairlift. She knew that her mother was awake and was coming downstairs from her sleep. Daisy quickly wiped her hands and went over to help her mother off the stairlift. She gently helped her into her wheelchair and wheeled her into the living room.

As they arrived in the living room, Daisy helped her mother to settle onto the armchair with a blanket to keep her warm. Narcissa looked tired and frail, and Daisy could see that she was struggling to stay awake.

Despite feeling sad, Daisy smiled at her mother and tried to make some small talk. "How are you feeling, mum?" she asked, hoping to distract her from her discomfort. Narcissa looked up at her daughter and smiled gratefully. "I'm feeling okay, darling," she replied in a trembling voice. "Thank you for all your help." Daisy felt a lump form in her throat as she looked at her mother.

She knew that it was only a matter of time before she would be gone, and she wanted to make the most of the time she had left with her. So, she sat down next to her mother on the sofa and turned on the television.

Daisy sat with her mother, watching whatever was on TV while helping Narcissa settle down in her blanket. Narcissa moved around, and Daisy could see that she was uncomfortable, so she got a pillow for her mum's back and let her lean against it. As soon as Narcissa leaned against the pillow, Daisy saw a sense of relief in her eyes. Daisy could see how tired her mother looked and how much she was struggling. She wanted to make this moment as comfortable and as loving as possible.