BASIL hated this. He hated himself.
He felt..alone...KEL said he had plans for himself and SUNNY.
SUNNY didn't want to leave BASIL alone but BASIL reassured him that it was fine. BASIL didn't want to steal SUNNY from KEL.
He's starting to wish he asked SUNNY to stay. He wished he told SUNNY not to go.
But that would make him clingy and needy. That would make him obsessive.
Worst of all, that would make him selfish..
But he's always been selfish.. Hasn't he?
He's always been so selfish.. Always wanting things to go his way. Always wanting to make people stay.
He wished he wasn't like this.
He was so selfish for wanting things to go back to the way they were.. But he couldn't help but long for it.
But whenever he felt safe.. Whenever he felt.. Happy.. There was always a voice in the back of his head to remind him how terrible of a person he was.
And how he didn't deserve to be happy. He couldn't disagree with that voice.. But he couldn't agree either.
It wasn't.. Fair..
Why must he drown in guilt as SUNNY slowly got better?
Why must he suffer while SUNNY was doing okay?
Why must he want to die when SUNNY had the will to go on?
Why must he want time to stop for just a second when SUNNY was moving on?
But those thoughts made him even more selfish.
He was a selfish good for nothing brat.
That's all he'll ever be.
But he still tried to smile.
SUNNY will be back tomorrow.. It's just one day.. I can handle it.
I'll be fine.
No he wouldn't..
Yes he would.. He lasted four years without SUNNY.. One day wouldn't mean anything.
SUNNY would be back. He would be okay.
He had no idea what he and SUNNY would do tomorrow but he didn't mind. He was.. Happy.
"But how can you be happy when you've ruined everyone's lives?"
....
"How can you hide from this? How can you live with yourself?"
....
That's not fair-
"Nothing's ever fair to you."
....
But SU-
"SUNNY is all you ever think about.. His actions don't justify yours."
....
How was BASIL arguing with himself?.. How does one do that?...
The one thing BASIL couldn't stop repeating was.. That's not fair.
And it wasn't.
Why couldn't he have fun? Why couldn't he be happy? SUNNY got to have fun.. SUNNY got to be happy...
SUNNY can run away. SUNNY gets to run away. SUNNY runs away. Isn't SUNNY running away?
If SUNNY is allowed to run away... Why can't he?
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Fanfiction❀❀❀❀❀❀❀❀Storyline❀❀❀❀❀❀❀❀❀ SUNNY's mom promised to let him go back to FARAWAY if he does good in school, After a long year of school he can finally go back for the summer! His mom has only ONE rule, don't go near BASIL....Eh, Fuck her rule. Things...
