random shit and thoughts

Problem #2

Sitting at the table together, Sarah whispers something in my ear.
I lightly push her away looking at mikes disappointed face.
Sarah makes me laugh, and I turn to mike once more who storms off.
She walks over to another friend, upset. "God. I'm such a jerk. Why did I do that?"
I think to myself.
But it's not me, is it?
I try, I try not to make her jealous. But i guess I don't try enough.

"Oh, you guys are hangin out later" mike stands in the hallway showing that jealous face once more.
I wave my arms nervously. What?! N-no! She just needs somewhere to stay the night while her moms out. Mike walks away, shit.
"Love you!" I walk out looking behind me to peer and see that look one more time before walking off. Hating myself.

This is not how I plan to make people feel better, to make friends. How do I keep screwing things up?