Evolving : A Rolivia FanFic

TWENTY-SIX

Olivia quietly sipped her wine as she stared out the window above her kitchen sink. 

"Why is the birthday girl just standing here drinking wine?" Nick asked as he joined Olivia in the kitchen. He pushed himself onto the counter and swung his legs as Olivia turned to look at him.

"It has been an incredibly long day," Olivia admitted quietly, as she leaned against the counter. 

"Yeah? What did you guys do?" Nick asked as Amanda left Charlotte's room and went straight to where Fin was waiting to hold the baby.

"We went to the mall and did some shopping, and then we promptly went to a fertility clinic," Olivia replied.

Nick looked at Olivia with wide eyes before he looked out to see if Amanda was listening to them.

"Amanda wants to get pregnant? Charlie is only two months old," Nick whispered.

"I'm going to get pregnant," Olivia replied, which surprised Nick even more than Amanda wanting to get pregnant just a few months after she gave birth.

"W-what?"

"Amanda and I have been fighting about my want to get pregnant. She knows I wouldn't be happy if I didn't at least give it a shot, so that is the plan. I'll be monitoring my cycles and when the time comes, we will either do the process here or at the clinic. I just need to do a ton of tests to see if I'm even able to have babies or not," Olivia replied, before pouring more wine into her glass.

"Does she want another baby or just doing this to appease you?"

"I honestly don't know. She claims she wants a baby with me, but she may change her mind. So I'm giving her a few months before asking her again. The testing isn't too expensive, and I'll be tracking my ovulation from home, but if we decide to do the insemination at the clinic, we need to be really sure," Olivia replied.

Nick nodded slowly before turning to Amanda and giving her a weak smile.

"Whatcha two talking about?" Amanda asked, as she walked to Olivia and wrapped an arm around her waist.

"Not a lot. Just that cute kid of yours," Nick lied.

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Amanda and Olivia made love for the first time since their fight that night. It felt weird for Olivia, especially since she hadn't felt close to her fiancee in a very long time. 

"Did you enjoy your birthday?" Amanda asked, her fingers running through Olivia's hair.

"I did. Thank you," Olivia replied plainly.

Amanda rolled onto her side and eyed Olivia for a long moment, her fingers moving from Olivia's hair to her shoulder blade.

"Liv, you don't seem that happy. C'mon, tell me the truth," Amanda replied. Olivia swallowed hard as she grabbed Amanda's free hand and threaded their fingers together.

"Do you really want another baby?" Olivia asked.

"Of course I do! If I didn't, then I wouldn't have set up the appointment for this afternoon. Liv-"

"So you aren't just playing along until we find out I'm infertile or something? Like you won't back out at the last minute?" Olivia asked.

"No! Liv-"

"I told you I'd give up my own wants to ensure that you'd stay with me! I love you and Charlie more than anyone else in the world, and I would be miserable without you two! So if you honestly don't mean this, then let me just be miserable but with you!" Olivia exclaimed as she pushed herself out of bed.

Amanda frowned deeply as she closed her eyes and ran a hand over her face. She was trying to make up for how poorly she treated Olivia regarding her wants. She had been selfish and was trying to fix things before they got out of hand. However, things were already out of hand. They were living in a strained relationship and Olivia was struggling to just sleep in the same bed as Amanda.

"You do realize how expensive this process is? It's not like just fucking some guy and getting pregnant! We have to buy sperm, there is a lot of testing, and there is insemination. I don't want to waste all of our money on something that you want nothing to do with! What if I go through with the pregnancy and you feel nothing toward the baby? Like you look at the baby and hate it because it was a last-ditch effort to keep us together?" Olivia yelled as she paced the length of her bedroom.

Amanda let Olivia exhaust herself before climbing out of bed and placing her hands on Olivia's bare hips. She tugged her close before resting her forehead against Olivia's.

"I was incredibly selfish before, and I never should have made it seem like your wants weren't important. In the end, this is our family and I want to make Charlie a big sister. I want to watch you carry our baby. Liv, I want this too. I won't abandon you or our future baby. I promise," Amanda breathed.

"Amanda," Olivia whispered.

"I'll be here with you through everything. Every craving, ache, and pain, let alone the birth. You took care of me during my entire pregnancy and afterward, so I'll do the same for you. I love you."

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Olivia rocked Charlotte in the rocking chair nestled in the corner of the nursery. It was late but was still Olivia's birthday. She was still scared that Amanda might change her mind, but she was trying to move past that. All she wanted was a family and a partner to have that family with. 

"Okay, Charlie Jean. Mama and I are going to make you a big sister. I don't know if it'll be this year or the one after... But no matter when it happens, I want you to always remember that you made us moms. You completed us, Charlie, and I love you so very much," Olivia whispered to her sleeping baby.