In Your Eyes~~~The 100 Bellarke FanFiction

I'm Done Wasting Time

Bellamy:

"Wanna go for a walk possibly hunt?" I ask Clarke as she exits the med tent.

"Sounds amazing!" She half yells as she flashes me her brightest smile.

"I take it the check up went well?" I know that's not why she's so happy but sounds reasonable out loud.

"Yup. Perfection are what I believe we're the actually words. Lost a ton of weight. I kind of needed that weight for winter, and I'm not going to be able to gain it back, but at least I'll win Miss Ark." She's so different. She's not so uptight anymore. It's like she stepped down from being Clarke the doctor leader to Clarke the girl. I can't tell if that's good yet.

"You shouldn't joke about that.." I look her in the eyes taking her by the shoulders and the smile disappears from her face as the mood gets serious. No not now this needs to stop. I need to just let her keep smiling. "Miss Ark is a very fierce competition to win the chancellors hand." I lie about what I meant and joke.

The smile returns and it's all worth it. just forgetting what happened to her. What happened to us. Just brush it to the side and pray that it doesn't come back and wake us from this amazing dream.

"That's not even what it's about!" She smiles and laughs.

"How about you tell me about it on our way to the river?"

"Sounds...." she leans in and I can smell something sweet radiating off of her. She kisses me on the lips all too quick and then she pulls away and the smile disappears and we stare at each other for what feels like an infinity. But apparently an infinity isn't long enough to explore every speck of deep blue in her magical eyes because she attempts to finish her sentence and changes her glance to my lips. No girl has ever looked at me like Clarke Griffon just did. "..fuuun."

She barely gets it out before she crashes her mouth onto mine. This time it's longer and I have time to wrap my arms around her to pull her closer if possible. He's hands fly through my hair and all I can feel is bliss. Then it ends. Like all things that I've had so far with Clarke. So pull her back in for another kiss but she pulls away all to quick again.

"People are staring." She whispers to me.

"I don't think you understand my agonizing need to have you. All of you. All the time. Everywhere." I whisper in her ear. Cause it's true I wasted so long not having her that I think it's time I have all of her.

"Why do you think I'm trying so hard to get away from camp." she whispers back and it takes me a total 0.482 seconds to grab my pack and grab her hand on my way to the gate.

As we get out into the open forest we decide to run to the river so we can get there fast. About ten minutes later she's bent over and not looking to good. This worries me. Clarke can usually sprint a full two hours without breaking a sweat. She lost a lot of weight but it was healthy. They fed her well. I can see the muscles in her legs and arms with out her flexing. Its all so confusing.

"Are you hot?" She pants.

"Clarke it's 40 degrees." This worried me. I look up from the little thermostat on my pack to see she's taking off her jacket. Underneath is a small black shirt cut at the bottom so her stomachs is clearly visible.

She has lost a lot of weight. I change my mind she doesn't look healthy. Her rips are almost visible. And the little scar on her belly is like a flashing light. I have to turn away.

"How much weight did you lose if you don't mind me asking?"

"Umm... About 20 - 30 pounds. The scale is..... a little broken....... it's best to estimate." She says between breaths.

She's still breathing heavy. I'm not sure what's happening. But I can faintly hear that little reality knocking at our door. I figure we can push away a little longer.

"Maybe Mt. Weather is secretly a weight loss camp." She chuckles

"Don't joke about that!" She goes quiet. "Your different you know that? You haven't worried about anything since you got back. Your acting like a crazy teenage girl. You barley talk about what happened in the mountain. Look at you. You lost like 30 pounds! I can see your ribs! And that scar. I'm worried about you." She blinks at me then quickly retaliates.

"I've been back for a day, Bellamy. Most of that time was spent 10 feet from anyone. So much has happened to me some of it I don't even remember. I can't think about. I need to forget, just for a couple days. Don't you think I deserve that?" I slowly nod and watch as reality walks away and promises it will come back some other time. Clarke puts her jacket back on and I help her up. I expect us to walk back to camp but am surprised when she gets up and starts walking to the river.

"Where are you going?" I shake my head and laugh in defeat.

She walks up to me and grabs the sides of jacket so my face come very close to hers. "I'm done wasting time. Okay?" Then she pulls me closer so are lips meet. Bliss. I get tired of desperately trying to get more of her so I rip her hands off my jacket and pick her up by her legs as she wraps her arms and feet around me. I carry her all the way to the river. I desperately press her lips into mine leaving us gasping for air. We break for breath only when her small delicate hands go to relieve me of my shirt and my of hers. She's so beautiful. Finally after all this wasted time I finally know. I know what it feels like to have all of her. To not worry about the pain of tomorrow and not be scared of what makes me happy. To be scared of love. I love her.

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Surprise update! Found time just for this.