In Your Eyes~~~The 100 Bellarke FanFiction

You're Leaving Again

Bellamy:

After I got Clarke back to camp and placed her carefully in a room in the ark that was completely dry, she insisted that I leave and that she wanted to be alone. Reluctantly I went. I know she needs time to herself but I'm so worried about her.

I can't help but ask what could I have done differently. I should have stayed even though she told me to go. I knew she needed someone after Finn died but I went anyway.

After many hours of meetings and arguments Lexa is letting a small group of soldiers and volunteers stay behind and help. But I won't bother Clark's with any of this.

She's been completely cut out of the decision making. So ours and the grounder council have decided that the best possible time to attack is now. In fact tomorrow. We're leaving today. Cage thinks this is going to go on for awhile, 9 months to be exact, but we have different plans.

I haven't told Clarke yet, and I'm not going to. She'll either want to come or not want me to go. She can't come and I'm going no matter what.

After we got back, and she calmed down, she reminded me of what I saw when we were both captives in the mountain. The first time I saw her after I left she was laying on an operating table getting her mind jumbled by Cage, god I hate him. He's the reason Clarke can't even stand in the rain. While packing up my bag and choosing my weapons I turn to see Clarke trudging over.

"Hey Princess, how're you doing?" I smile, the rain had stopped only moments before.

"Shut up! Shut your pretty little mouth up Bellamy Blake!" Startled I close my mouth and take a step back.

"What's wrong Princess?"

"Don't call me Princess! Okay? Not now...." I nod as the fire leaves her face. Is it too early on for this just to be hormonal crap? "You're leaving? Again?" Ooh. That's what this is.

"How'd you find out?" I half mumble half whine.

"Bellamy I'm not an idiot." She whips. "Every one is packing and I know I've been through a lot but I'm still a leader. Now is the best time to attack, me and Lexa set up the plan in the first place. Wait for something big to happen then strike before he can comprehend it. Everything's going to plan except no one expects me to come. How can they do this with out me."

"I know you might think differently but a thousand soldiers can actually win a battle without you." I laugh sarcastically.

"Yes I do think differently. Bellamy this isn't a battle this is the whole goddamn war! Just because I was gone a little while doesn't mean I'm out completely! I can still go!" She snaps taking  a step forward.

"Clarke... it's not just you you have to look out for now." I say softly.

"I bet I'm not even a month along, and if I lost the baby it wouldn't matter, it fact it might be better."

"Clarke, do you really think you could live with that?" I whisper.

"I've been through worse and I'm still breathing." She huffs.

"How can your be sure that won't be worse?"

"Because I've killed hundreds. Because of Charlotte. Because this is Cages baby." She grabs her stomach.

"Does it matter who the father is? It's a human being! Clarke I know you and you don't feel that way. You don't care who the father is."

"Your wrong Bellamy I do care who the father is. The man who held me, you, and forty seven of my friends hostage. But when I think about this baby as a human life your right I don't care the father is, that doesn't matter. But Bell..... I can't do it. I can't be a mother.... I just.... I can't. I won't be able to keep it safe I just know.... Everyone around me dies..." She shakes her head as a tear falls.

I quickly glide over to her and hold her in my arms. "Clarke, You are going to be the most amazing mother. You will keep it safe. You'll be perfect at it. And you won't be alone. I'm going to help in every way I can. I'm great with kids." I whisper in her ear, then kiss her on her head. She's so precious.

"Bellamy." She pulls away. "I'm going."

"Clarke you can't go!"

"Just because I went through something doesn't mean I'm a completely different person. I'm not weak or fragile, so don't make me feel like it. I'm stronger now then I've ever been. I'll be careful." She leans in to look into my eyes.

"Clarke....." She stops me from saying no but brushing her hands through my hair to get a hold of my head. Before I can reclaim my thoughts she pulls me forward and kisses me softly. I melt instantly. I want more so I lean in but before I can get enough she pulls away.

"I'm going to get packed, I'll meet you by the gate in an hour." She runs away with a smile.

Okay boring chapter I know, I know but the next ones going to be juicy! I got plans for this rest of this book. I've been super busy and I promise to update more if people continue to read. In fact I'll update this weekend so be on the look out.

Oh and one more thing if you like my writing I have another Bellarke thing I'm working on, its a one shot book. I've liked every one in it so far so you should check it out!