In Your Eyes~~~The 100 Bellarke FanFiction

Noah Shut Up

Clarke:

It didn't shock me. I already knew. I just felt it. I nod my head in acceptance and turn to walk out. But before I can reach the exit I feel Bellamy's hands wrap around my forearm. He pulls me around to look at him but I'm not playing right now.

"We'll work it out." He whispers looking into my eyes. For a second I want to believe him but I quickly remember there's no way out of this.

"Give me time to clear my head. I need to make a plan." I state. He just looks at me.

"Clarke?" I hear my name being shouted down the hallway. It's Noah.

"Why's Noah here?" Bellamy half growls. "I thought the grounders we're done with us?"

"They were but I called for Noah to talk about it. I forgot." Bellamy seems agitated but tries to hide it.

"Clarke!" Noah sees me and sprints the rest of the way to me. When he finally reaches me he grabs me from my waist picks me spinning me around. "I thought you were dead." He cries setting me back down. His eyes an icy fire. The sudden movements made me nauseous and I feel bile welling in my mouth. "Clarke are you okay?" He says returning his arms back to my waist to steady me.

"Step back jackass." Bellamy hisses pulling me back attempting to put himself between me and Noah.

"No! Clarke what's wrong?!" He tries to push past Bellamy.

"It's nothing Noah really." I say between deep breaths.

"Did he do something to you?" His eyes hold a naive passion that breaks my heart.

"She's pregnant!" Bellamy shouts placing both hands on Noah's shoulders pushing him back.

"She's what? Did you do this?!" Him and Bellamy are now face to face. I shake my head nausea building in me.

"Why would it matter to you?!" Bellamy retaliates

"Shut up! Stop! I've been back for a day it's impossible anyways just shut up!" I finally say when I've finished throwing up.

They both went ucompletely silent.

Not wanting to elongate the silence I quickly navigate my way out of the room through the camp and into the woods.

I want to sprint through the woods. Feel the soft wind in my hair, and smell the fresh scent that the forest radiates. I want to hear the curious noises that click from every direction. I ease my way down a hill of dark green moss and grey flowers growing out of thin purplish trees with strange patterned bark. But I don't sprint and I don't feel a soft breeze.

I walk slowly and the sharp wind sears into my back. All I can smell is smoke but I don't see any. When I take another gust of air through my nose the cold burns it. Unable to smell anything now. All I can hear is crunch of fallen leaves and my rushed breaths. I'm out of breath?

Somehow I doubt it's actually because the baby. Just the thought of carrying another human being has tired me out. Oh lord. I am carrying a human being inside of me. The worst part is it's not natural. No I don't even know who the father is. It might be Cage but that's just a guess. An educated guess.

When I make my way down the hill I come to the river. It takes me awhile to get atop my rock but when I do it feels so nice. I close my eyes and lie down. The normalcy of the action soothes me. The rock is colder but I tell myself it's a relaxing chill. I shiver despite it all. If Bell were here he'd scold me for not having a bigger jacket. I shouldn't of had told him to stay away. I smile to myself.

When I open my eyes the sky widens my smile. The sun light I had memorized all that time ago is gone and all I see is grey. It might rain. It makes my smile bigger because I'm being childish. Things have changed but they always do. But this time I have Bellamy, he's safe. I love him and he knows it. I sit there for a minute picturing his smile and imagining every  possible way I could make him laugh when I get back. He'd probably laugh for no reason if I asked him just to make me smile. He'd make an amazing father. Noah's words slipped into my mind it's not Bellamy's kid but no one needs to know that. This kid will be happy with its father. That's what I'll do. Bellamy will be the father.

He already has a father...

"What!" I jump from my rock and scramble back while looking for the producer of the voice.

You know you can't keep him from me...

Its Cage I can feel it. The voice is his but it sounds strange like how people's voices sound in dreams. The collar. He's in my head through the collar.

"No! Stay out of my head!" I scream and punch the air. My vision is getting blurry and I can feel reality slip from my grasp. I'm falling into delusion. "You can't have him!" How does he know it's a boy no one can tell this early on.

He's already mine...

He continues to talk but I won't listen. "Leave me alone!" I scream covering his words with mine, my stomach twisting at his sadistic voice. The pounding in my head drowns out the words. I throw an arm unconsciously to the left and trip over my feet falling to right. I fall into a set of cold arms. Cage! I fight against his grip but my vision is blurry and I'm throwing blind punches.

"Clarke it's me! It's me." I hear the words melt into my ears and instantly stop fighting. I open my eyes that I didn't know were closed and see Bellamy. He looks so scared.

"Bellamy." I cry sounding like a small child that just scraped her knee on the arks metal floors. I throw myself into his arms and bawl into his neck.

"He was here." I gasp as he strokes my hair.

"Who was here?" He hugs me tighter.

"Cage." I say evenly trying to pull myself together. I'm stronger than this. He pulls away and looks into eyes.

"When." He says in a serious tone. "I swear to you I'll kill him."

"But that's the thing bell... He was in my head..." I whisper as if I was afraid he might actually hear me. Tears drip from my face. "You can't kill him. You can't make it stop and neither can I." I remove one of my arms and point to the black wires wrapped around my neck. His face changes from confused and worried to extremely worried and angry. He pulls me back into his arms that instantly warm me. He wraps an arm around my waist and one goes to my head. "Bell I'm scared." I whisper into his ear. He holds me tighter. His hand running through my hair.

"I'll never leave you. Clarke I love you. I'm going to keep you safe no matter what." He whispers back.

He can't save you and he won't raise our child...

I shiver and pull away just as I hear lighting strikes from far away and it starts to rain.

Anna...

I can't contain the screams that comes next each drop on my skin burns like acid all the while I can hear Cage whispering.

Anna...

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This was fun to write 😅

What do you think of Clarkes new look? I'd rather she not become a full on grounder.